Back le..

if i can always be that happy!!
now i am left with a choice.. to leave!!

my nerd hair make me laugh make me sad make me so emo!!
i just wish i know nothing.. continue be a sotong gal!


this is the last time i c papa.. i c blackie!! i didnt know sch start everything come to end!! fairytales ar fake.. who the fk in this world still believe in it.. MAYBE i am de last idoit!!

Back from my break le.. Smk le forget le but reach home everything back into my mind again.. seriously, now i feel veri giddy.. sis was shock y i SMK! i realli stress. from sch, from Papa, from WHY, from everything... i keep looking looking looking hoping there will be change will be surprise or even HOPE.. but all i c is pain dream.. tmr, when i wake up it will be another story.. maybe gd maybe bad but wht i know is i don feel like waking up..Neber promise ppl when u cannot do it.. neber gif ppl hope when u cannot fulfil it.. it onli end up gif-ing ppl pain.. when i say pain when i say i am emo now is thousand of saddness.. i cannot use words to describle it i onli can use my shattered soul to show u.. i neber show ppl how emotional i am. i always gif my fren happy go lucky look. but today i show them my pain my fear my lose in everything.. baby sharon, sayang fatyn sorri i didnt mean to show that sad face but i just bearing too much in my heart..4 the first time i didnt bring my phone out.. i dont know who invented sms.. Sms a programme that can kill ppl can hurt ppl can bring ppl joy can do so many things to thousand of ppl.. ppl often ask me y i got so many unread sms.. i am scare of sms le.. i can scare of putting hope in a sms n kana disappointed once n again.. can i sleep tonight without thinking? i cant ba.. Papa.. i realli don know why i so stupid.. Papa.. i am so sorry ba.. if time can stop i just wana be back like the past where papa still papa.. Papa.. XINFU.. easy to write but hard to get the meaning... now i veri mess up, i wish to MIA also.. but i cant. i still got my project.. if i neber know papa n them i still in my RnB. but now when i blogging i listening to chinese oldies.. Knowing a person is easy forgetting a person is hard.. To love takes 3mins to forget take 3weeks-3months-3years.. now my head so hurting, i promise bim to stop SMK but sorri i realli veri stress i just cannot think straight.. Papa is not easy to tell a person everything..

I HATE MYSELF!!

blackie-raymond sorri sorri n sorri accepting anot is another thing.. i didnt mean to come into it n leave so many bad memories.. i didnt mean anything.. all ur question is not i don wan answer its sudden. i didnt know how 2 answer.. maybe i c things so different that i didnt notice anything.. but, i still wan ty u all pei me 4 the past 2weeks.. i neber step into orchard but i neber miss out any fun also coz i got u guys pei me.. maybe this will be the last le..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY RAYMOND!! 26JULY!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KC!! 30 JULY!!

i was so hurt.. tmr how am i going sch wht type of feeling must i bring with me.. i going insane!! tears ar meant to be hidden.. i am not brave not strong.. i even think of going out de road kana BANG by de car!! i keep staring blank now!! i cannot have anything in my mind a clear vision of happy or even something to keep me clear!! i will miss u all!! i should be the one who leave ba!! papa don need MIA.. i am the idoit! i leave ba.. its my fault..i cant sleep.. i just need some1 now to talk to listen to forget something.. to know everything wont be back wont return to wht it is.. sad.. so many things happen make me unwell again.. my stomach flu, my blackout, my heart..everything compressing me make me feel emotionally breakdown.. pls don tell me wht i should do just lead me out of this mess..ITS ALL MY FAULT!! i cannot stop hating myself!!

BYE! BYE! Baby du bu qi!