Emo day!!

I AM A LIVING DEAD DOLL!!

why izzit me?

what i do?

PLS STOP ASKING ME WHY!!

CAUSE I ALSO NEED TO KNOW WHY!!

eh!! don need jia xin xin- don need act cute!! don need say tat we ar still friends.. have u even spare a thought for my feeling.. don tell me that u want protect ur friend.. so wht am i to use some BITCH.. bloody hell!! u ar such a KPO!! KPO= BUSY BODY.. can u care more 4 urself.. maybe u need attention cause u feel left out after i enter.. after so much hurtful things u did to me!! call ur-self a man!!

U R A PUSSY 2 ME!! FK OFF PLS!!

today back to square 2!! life still a shell sch soul out thing..enter class onli tio aim & shoot non stop!! smiling now is 2 hide my pain! the more i laugh the more empty my heart is..I miss them.. not the pussy!! papa.. why.. haix!! i don wan be ling anymore.. ling is painful is sad is not as gd as wht ppl think wht ppl see!! morning when bathing i ask myself can i don be me.. i gif up many things i use to enjoy doing 4 wht i also don know.. but i know i lose alot of happiness n in return gain alot of sorrow.. Love a word a feeling the world is searching 4.. i feel a total loser.. i always help ppl but who help me when i in a lose.. afraid to wake up, i now don even feel like talking i so scare the more i talk the more i might say something wrong.. ty papa.. at least u still there 4 me.. support me abit.. i am sorri that my decision hurt u.. but i did explain why i do that, choose that, did that.. i thought why will help me overcome all.. i wanted to cry out everytime but when the tears reach my eyes they just refuse to leave.. i am afraid so afraid that i become blank mind.. HOW long will it take to overcome everything? Everyday i wake up being a nobody.. Why.. the reason we quarrel.. the answer u wan.. i just want you to myself... only. selfish.. yes i am.. brain wash myself everyday.. veri tired.. tmr long day ahead.. still need rush home help skye de KUKU man wedding lic.. than i decided to quit audition... take a break.. hopefully sat bim free.. sian lo!! i treat all gd but not myself.. EH baby sharon, x3 hee.. ty 4 being there pei-ing me.. baby LOVE!! wee wu wee!! today lesson time keep sleeping HFC revision sleep. FTY faciaL & massage SLEEP... i am tired both my mind n my soul ba.. baby violent lo, de way she twist my head remove my eyes makeup n the way she do vibration..papa.. i not a strong ger n wont be the strong ger.. who don wan to be taken care of by some1.. its hard to overcome everything alone, i think not even wonderwoman can do it.. takes a little help a little push!! now, i don blame any1 but myself 4 everything that happen in my eyes.. everything takes 2 hands to clap, 2 hands t hold on to some1... i just wan to be hold on tight now... a suddenly hug might make me cry.. till today i still look around since the moment i step out my hse.. hoping something happen hoping he might pop out n talk 2 me.. maybe that is wish that is hoping ba.. i know it will not happen now n neber... i don wan know wht will happen tomorrow cause today is a failure...

I HATE LING!! LING'ER LING'ER LING'ER!!!

aviation - you were my everything

this goes out to someone that was

once the most important person in my life

i didn't realize it at the time

i can't forgive myself for the way i treated you so

i don't really expect you to either

it's just... i don't even know

just listen...

you're the one that i want, the one that i need

the one that i gotta have just to succeed

when i first saw you, i knew it was real

i'm sorry about the pain i made you feel

that wasn't me; let me show you the way

i looked for the sun, but it's raining today

i remember when i first looked into your eyes

it was like god was there, heaven in the skies

i wore a disguise 'cause i didn't want to get hurt

but i didn't know i made everything worse

you told me we were crazy in love

but you didn't care when push came to shove

if you loved me as much as you said you did

then you wouldn't have hurt me like i ain't shit

now you pushed me away like you never even knew me

i loved you with my heart, really and truly

i guess you forgot about the times that we shared

when i would run my fingers through your hair

late nights, just holding you in my arms

i don't know how i could do you so wrong

i really wanna show you i really need to hold you

i really wanna know you like no one could else know you

you're number one, always in my heart

and now i can't believe that our love is torn apart

refrain:i need you and

i miss you andi want you and

i love you 'cause

i wanna hold you,

i wanna kiss you

you were my everything

and i really miss you (2x)

i knew you gonna sit and play this with your new man

and then sit and laugh as you're holding his hand

the thought of that just shatters my heart

it breaks in my soul and it tears me apart

at times we was off i was scared to show you

now i wanna hold you until i can't hold you

without you, everything seems strange

your name is forever planted in my brain

damn it, i'm insane,

take away the pain

take away the hurt

baby, we can make it work

what about when you

looked into my eyes

told me you loved me

as you would hugged me

i guess everything you said was a lie

i think about it, it brings tears to my eyes

now i'm not even a thought in your mind

i can see clearly, my love is not blind

i just wish everything could have turned out differently

i had a special feeling about you

i thought maybe you did too

you would understand, but...

no matter what, you'll always be in my heart

you'll always be my baby

our first day, it seemed so magical

i remember all the time that i had with you

remember when you first came to my house?

you looked like an angel wearing that blouse

we hit it off, i knew it was real

but now i can't take all the pain that i feel

reach in your heart, i know i'm still there

i don't wanna hear that you no longer care

remember the times? remember when we kissed?

i didn't think you would ever do me like this

i didn't think you'd wanna see me depressed

i thought you'd be there for me, this i confess

you said you were my best friend, was that a lie?

now i'm nothing to you, you're with another guy

i tried, i tried, i tried, and i'm trying

now on the inside it feels like i'm dying

the only thing i want is for you to be happy

whether it be with me, or without me

i just want you to be happy

爱我的人和我爱的人

盼不到我爱的人

我知道我愿意再等

疼不了爱我的人

片刻柔情它骗不了人

我不是无情的人

却将你伤的最深

我不忍我不能

别再认真

忘了我的人

离不开我爱的人

我知道爱需要缘分

放不下爱我的人

因为了解他多么认真

为什么最真的心

碰不到最好的人

我不问我不能

拥在怀中

直到他变冷

爱我的人为我痴心不悔

我却为我爱的人甘心一生伤悲

在乎的人始终不对

谁对谁不必虚伪

爱我的人为我付出一切

我却为我爱的人流泪狂乱心碎

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