SIan lo

Saturday, actually should feel happy de but baby Sharon working.. i think i will be staying home today..

Friends

well.. so many years le.. friends realli so hard to find ma.. because of frens i get so EMO everytime.. since young i don have much fren.. i am not the type who can talk well make ppl laugh like mad, but over the years i trying so hard to learn to talk more and find jokes so as i wont be left out.. who knows my pain!!

Primary sch.. at that time we HAVE NO MOBILE.. so i didn't manage to keep contact with them.we went different secondary sch..i wanted to choose bedok north cause its just shift over behind my house n most of my primary sch frens will be there.. but mum don't like it cause their passing rate for O & N ar low.. so i ended up going DAmai..well there how i lose contact with my primary frens...

Secondary sch.. well its the worse of my life ba.. when i go in secondary i often get bullied.. DUE to my geek look.. OMG LO..but i manage to find 1 GD fren well she the study type always no time go out-(till today we still remain Gd fren but we hardly meet up she's some workaholic)..Secondary 3, i repeated 1 year due to follow the wrong peers.the damm funny thing is when i repeat my secondary 3 n goes all the way up 2 secondary 5 my junior bullied me too funny right.. my fren say is because when i wear glasses i look 100% like a nerd when i wear lens i look ahLIAN.. OMG LO.. i just want to be NORMAL.. whhen i go out shopping i look at other gers they have best fren who company them High n LOW.. ALL I WANTED IS FREN GD FREN WHO CAN TALK N SHARE PROBLEM.. y izzit so hard 4 me.. haix.. i always feel y i am so suay even my own sis also say me suay..

Poly.. well poly is gd. i have frens.. but i didnt study than sobx KANA EXPEL but i really don like engineering imagine everyday we carry tools kit inside all wires. my gf they don makeup all plain so everytime i go toilet they will have to wait 4 me to finish touching up.. but my poly mate always work as a group damm fun.. but sometimes also hard to call them out lo.. cause our project some in TONS.. its fun with them lo.. our chalet also.. i miss my frens. u GUYS ROXZ!! u make me love poly.. i just regret not finishing.. if time possible, lets meet up when u guys free..

ITE.. well i thought i finally going to have besties fren who love beauty.. sian lo.. 1 small matter now i am at the end of losing fren..actually also not my fault la.. let u all decide ba!! actually the first month of sch i really veri happy i love my sch my frens so much. make me happy everyday.. i am not like poly skipping sch anymore.. than got 1 day i sick than doc gif me 2days MC.. the following monday i back things starts to change.. than some1 told me the story.. lets call the ger FB.. FB n me was GD. but recently she stop talking to me start doing things that make me piss off n feel left out in the group..now my feeling for sch is different.. SAD again..haix.. seriously she tell the group things i feel so lame.. ok example 1, before that let me tell u ba every time lunching i find corner seat cause i carry a big big bag so i can have a chair 4 my baggie if i put it behind me i will not have sit 4 myself.. so in order not to trouble my fren carrying my bag or me not able to sit i choose to place my self in the corner. so FB she told my fren that time she came late she was standing next to me. the blue x is where i place my bag n my frens bag. she wanted the blue seat(she didn't say a word thinking i would know she want the sit) but not knowing it we ask her to find a chair so we can shift her to the side with onli 2 ppl.. but she just stare hard at the blue sit.. so she was angry dragging the char over to the 2ppl side..its not my fault la..she in turn GIVE ME A BLACK FACE.. she tell ppl that my bag is more important than fren.. funny right. i feel la u must be more understanding. she always think more abt herself than others.. seriously i am not the only person around y she only aim me.. just because i have a big bag..

Example 2, the day before my MC.. i was having HFC as my last lesson HFC-hand n foot care..lesson was on foot massage n we ar suppose to wash model feet..i on the tap n tested the water at that time u switch hot or cold water the tap will only serve u COLD water.. seriously, tap is shared by 1 whole row of 10 ppl the water changes temperature anytime so i just leave it to fill itself to the maxed level.. it turn out, the water is HOT..she tested with her feet so i drain out some of the water changed it to Luke.. than as followed by the massage. well its not i deliberately do it. when we have a changed over, u know what she do to seek revenge. she give me extreme HOT water.. turns out my foot are real sensative turned RED ms leong call it LOBSTER gif her a scolding.. she told my frens that i revenge her.. HELLO!! MISS FB CAN U PLS RECALL BACK.. I START UR FOOT FIRST THAN FOLLOWED BY U!! CAN U PLS BE REASONABLE.. SHE tell my fren that i am childish!! she also said i always slap her feet real hard..OMG LA..i just want her to help me out abit.. u must partner her than u know what the hell i am going throught.. she don't listen in class. always make mistake she take pratical as a joke.. when she do mistake i neber scold her, she nail paint my nails so badly i have a hard time cleaning.. no ppl is perfect, if she think she's great than i wont see the point of her failing her Phase exam..SO, when i took my 2days MC.. my friends treated me differently.. everytime i talk to them FB will cut in my words.. she tell my friends she wont give in n want me to apologise..if i am in a wrong of cause i will apologise without doubt..the problem is just between both of us y must u drag it in to others..when she's around i will diam diam(keep quiet) i already give in.. but she take it for granted just keep giving me a hard time.. i really love this sch love my frens..i don't wan because FB u all distancing me out.. FRIENDS.. we will only be together for 1year. i just want treasure time n memories of US.. i wish we can be like the past few weeks going out every saturday enjoying the every moments of our time together.. haix.. really very sad now.. i don't wan lose them.i did my best to prove them i LOVE THEM.. going sch become draggie.. i might not be like FB joking fill u all with laughter but least my heart is real. i listen to all ur problem i will be around when u all need me..i do what ever the best i can..i remember every memories u all brought me.. PLs.. let us be BESTIEs FRENS n strong teamwork ba.