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WHAT I DO AT HOME...(BLEH)
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7am sleep
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7pm wake up
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Play DS/ watch VCD
(1meal per day)
Problem!!
well.. i just came back from orchard.. finally meet up with baby sharon.. Baby ty 4 being there 4 me.. well just now slacking she break some news 2 me.. remember abt de explanation i made earlier..
SO FB my reply, go ask ard lo when did u mention the water is HOT to me.. don't tell me u neber smile n laugh away during class lo i talking 2 others i cannot laugh la..so u feel i scorch u intentional if i so bad i will be scorching every1 who partner me..did i do that to baby sharon?.. answer me la!!ok i agree i say u attention seeker but ask ard am i de onli 1 saying & i feel BuCAI attention seeking skill is 100% worse lo..
who is not attention seeker?
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Is de amount one ppl is seeking..
Don tell me u neber say tat so-&-so so ATTENTION SEEKER!!
Eh, when did i ever say sia..(BAG IS MORE IMPORTANT THAN PEOPLE!) maybe is u ba!! just because i carry Calvin Klein izzit.. hell lo.. if branding so important to me sch start i bring my GUCCI bag 2 sch la.. than might as well all of us can sit on de floor... tat time i diam diam leh.. u think i like maple got teleport ar.. how i know u wan chairs from my bag.. u can open mouth ma by staring at my bloody bag u think he can stand up from de chair n say (MISSY U MAY HAVE MY CHAIR)... i think is because my bag is big(enough to treat it like camping or hiking) u must aim me n shoot la.. watch abt Love pls excuse me LOVE GOT alot lo..JUST BECAUSE MY BLOODY BAG DON OFFER CHAIR MEANS NOT LOVE MA.. than ii gif u n share my stuff among every1 i also not love la..wht love u wan? sacrifice wht u think ritual ma??.. than if u wan say LOVE RIGHT U GOT DO UR PROJECT MA..At computer lab, wht u offer us is viewing ur own friendster ma? than when ppl ask u y bo help u will say coz ling don like my idea! i got explain to u Y i don like it..i trying my best to offer the best we can to get gd grades u think this project is abt me abt u.. ITS THE WHOLE TEAM AT STAKE. DOING DE BEST 4 U 4 ME N SAYANG N BABY!! when we ask u to gather n help out u say OH i cant see..is this de best u do 4 ur fren? is this de type of LOVE u say sacrifice? so FRIENDSTER IMPORTANT THAN FREN N PROJECT?
comparing who gif in more who offer more will meaning tiring friendship love is neber endless of effort paying off!! maybe in some way i might not be gd nor u maybe gd but what we all wan is be happy n offering our best!!
JUST BE YOURSELF!!
i am not that type who SHOW OFF HOW MUCH i do 4 LOVE RATHER DO IT SLIENTLY I AM NOT TAT TYPE WHO TALK ALOT MAKE PPL LAUGH LEAST I TRYING MY BEST DO WHATEVER I CAN!! MAYBE U cant feel it..2 more weeks before the project due if this is the attitude u continue to give than nothing more to say..
Y prove who hate who most!
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why not prove n show our project is the best?
I AM not gd all along with ppl with fren.. i often get misunderstanding.. u think i want it ma?? LAST min project planing who was de 1 who keep ask us to wait wait wait than when i squeeze ideas out onli commented well (gd),(ok).. did i scold u? did i force u 2 gif me ideas? did i ask u force u to stop whtever u ar doing n help us plan? y u always look at ppl's negative side!!
HAHA!! DAMM joke sia!! ask ard when i started it lo? going back last time don bring 1 hand to clap lo.. pushing blame ARD??.. ok lo ty 4 trying 2 make me de bad person.. when i MC back who de 1 who suddenly changed maybe u don feel it la!!! so by meaning i STARTED it u wan me CLOSED IT AR!! k lo prove me that ii am 90% at fault..
So wht abt my character?
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MUST i change 4 u??
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OH, so wht am i missing out that i just don get it??
yea.. when i talk to them u also (diam diam) i agree 100% but eyes staring at me like fking not happy with me will stab me anytime u ar free lo!!
oh abt last sentence not getting it neber mind de.. Since u pin pointed so many fault of mine 1 fault extra means nothing cause u will find 10 more fault with me.. oh, help u ar i help u not enough or izzit i offer not enough help to YOU..
i correct ur mistake u got thanks ME?
i do 1 wrong u remember for months..
So this is call FAIR LA..
Maybe in ur eyes now u just feel i trying 2 hide n cover every fault i done... SO u wan me think abt wht.. saying sorri to YOU.. something tat is not my fault in the first place? so u thinking ma?
least i neber tell ppl EH i hate a ger in my class. if u ar so great than prove to everyone la! ar u perfect?
NO1 in this world is perfect..
Don tell me in this life no ppl hate u like u love u.. y not HATING LOVING LIKING KEEP IT TO YOURSELF..y not turn ur energy 4 hate 4 love 4 liking 2 studying 2 going out n enjoy.. maybe u feel things come n go easily treasuring anot also don matter! u ar young u will meet alot of ppl when u out society..but to me i wan treasure every memories i have.. i don go ard hating ppl i don have much friends 1st,i am not chit chatter type 2nd,my classmate mostly guys during secondary n poly(engineering)..i just happy i finally have GFS alot alot of GF..BUT i didnt know alot of GFS means mouthing... least i use hearts to treasure frens maybe u don feel it..now its just needles poking needles with us.. i neber go ard OMG OMG!! TELL U HOR I HATE THIS GER IN MY CLASS SO MUCH I WANT xxxxxxx HER..
least i neber dislike u hate u. Till today i neber hate u lo!!100% tell u truth ba..(believe it or not)
so u ever heard i said i hate FB? did u?
You know what is messenger?..
Got watch TV MA?..
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4pass(n so on)-they might make mistake n pass wrong!!
Maybe by telling every1 u hate me can let u feel better.. i neber bad mouth u behind ur back, i just stating facts..trying to explain wht u mention to others!! i already explain everything i can on my blog.. Did i confront u? Its not abt daring my guts! WanT (JIO) me 1 on 1? Let me ask u la--YOU WANT & LIKE every1 know abt our problem izzit? letting EVERY1 know our problem will bring YOU proud izzit? U think end up fighting will solve everything ma? Keeping quiet is a time 4 our 2 minds to cool down before we can reduce to peace or solving!!
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If we quarrel in sch or end up fighting we onli let ppl watch free show!
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THAN aftermath is we will neber get back in track together as a friend n a team!!
YOU want this to happen?
Think abt those things i explain n said..who neber make mistake? is whether u wan forgive & forget or u wan continue hating each other non-stop blogging n scolding!!
2weeks to EFC PRESENTATION!!
(skye hurry bring my material back from japan)
IF NOT NEXT TIME DON'T WAN CHIONG AUDITION 4 U LE!!
DON'T HELP U FIND AUDITION CPL!
DON'T FORGIVE U 4 BUSTING ME OUT!(i use his guy char jio gers)shh!!
HAHA!! HURRY waiting 4 my BURBERRY BLUE LABEL!!
MY LIFE
Don't understand lo.. i am not asking every1 to like me 4 who i am..i also don't like myself ba seriously..i want be normal lo so hard ma.. Ppl say i look like CHINA ger,but i am not.. i also not AHLIAN!! secondary sch, kana bully till secondary 5 funny right..but so HARD just to stay as friends ma.. mum say if ppl don like you just diam diam lo..the more u care abt wht others see & feel about you life will be so hard to live.. don care wht ppl think or say lo.. if you are perfect than go ahead comment on the others.But, i am the one i keep listening to ppl see and feel about me.. that is why my life is so hard to live ba..i care too much too lots abt wht ppl think abt me.. i change for ppl i neber live n change for myself.. who knows abt my feeling,ii am sad lo. lonely in the night.. sometimes i feel i am a nobody living in pain.. under alot of pressure,its not i dont wan wake up from dream, don wan mature myself but i facing so many problem daily i wan hide.. yes my family dote me n sis..uncle n gugu will buy me whatever i want, i need, give me money every month.but they cant give me a dad's love, from young he is so busy with work.he neglected me n sis onli when result came n needed signatures that was the time of lecturing no matter how well i do in his eyes i am a nob0dy.. Around primary5 dad was sent to indon for business trip he came home weekly n slowly monthly now to every few months.Mum wanted me to do well for secondary 4N's-5O's to prove dad wrong that i am stupid. I did well n progress to poly but dad didnt utter a word but he gif me fk up face.. whatever i do is wrong in his eyes.. secondary sch time everyday hide in my room everynight n cry i didnt like to talk to ppl-family n friends nob0dy understand me.. i gt problem commnicating to ppl cause i always bring wrong idea make ppl hate me more i was afraid to speak n lose frens.i was sent to counsel during my secondary sch.i started talking a few years ago, when my baby cousin was born i try help out in looking after them.cause they cant speak they wont scold u when u wrong hate u when u beat them.baby are the best they have nothing to worry.mum will feed them food,daddy's love family warm.Growing up is painful since the start of teething.y i love clubbing i like dancing,during that time u will forget who u ar wht will happen next nothing but pure love for dancing..u might ask wht am i stressing lo, so little problem of yours.haha.. well, if u pei me go back china my grandma & pa hometown.. u will know both SG n CHINA all my family ar fk-ing PRO LA.. damm clever ba.. My cousin who i nearly have the same name as her ye ling going to study at the local top university (sian half right) on the other side i am onli poly n ite nia.. my dagugu-surgeon. grandma side also la.. SG also la cannot say la later tio scold by them.. hse of genuis ba.. my sis can don need study play maple n pass her o lvl with 12.. lucky i neber take o with my sis n cousin at the same time if not i will be crying like hell..when i go poly is not i want to go is uncle want me to go they attended my poly meet the parent ..if i dont go they will look down on me.. uncle keep looking down at me at that time i end o lvl he keep saying prepare to go ITE.. pressure lo~~everytime i do things i always wan others to happy i always think of others... mum n dad not in gd term grandpa n ma not in gd term.. the onli thing sis talk to me is maple maple maple.. when i audition sis will wack me when i miss or when i cant do CFM. am i trying to be missy perfect!NO! i just try to be normal..i lousy at making friends, primary sch my frens call me giant cause i tall i got wrong ma? 166cm u think i wan ar.. is my parents my maternal grandpa.. being tall kana bully. being nerd kana bully.being ahlian kana bully. whatever i do ppl just don like me.. GIF ME A CHANCE BE NORMAL.. y ppl don just be understanding... looks is decieving. is the heart that i wan show.. all along i not gd with gers..i am a girl but y they don like me.. cause i haolian i spolit brat i slut i wht? i neber la.. wht is there for me to showoff.. my family not perfect my life not perfect my everything not perfect lo.. dad got friend problem too is too all gender he got bad temper lo stubborn n selfish.. yea i agree i am selfish n bad temper ,stubborn by its up to secondary i say gd bye to selfish n bad temper..u noe i ever wack my own uncle not hair pulling type is those punching n tennis racket wack his head.back in secondary sch days..my uncle has to cerfew me..i wack my male classmate just because they bully my best friend...i always think best fren 1 enough lo who realli understand n pei u all the time.. i treasure her alot alot protect her like my onli fren forever.. hui khoon realli miss u lo.. she the 1 who know n understand my sad.. now i cannot get fk-ing angry, like uncle if i get angry my hand will shake badly body also swell and also will suddenly lose control n go crazy keep scolding.. mum say is a illness.. this year is my tai sui year- means extreme fk bad luck year worse than any animals in zodiac. its not first time i face friendship problem, mum say maybe its things i say make ppl dislike me displeasing with me maybe i say wrong things or show wrong attitude.. i got this habit of not looking at ppl when they talk.its not i am not listening 100% listening is i don like to look ppl in the eyes.. i feel werid lo.
damm tired le.. i think i will continue tmr or when i free ba.. 7.35am i wan sleep le.. maybe i not sleeping ba.. later i meeting baby sharon go out.. i feel like cutting hair lo but i go sure 90% will dye lo. howhow how teacher wan me dye black but i don like black la.. like so fierce lo.. nvm i decide later!ENOUGH LE LA.. YAWNING i blog whole night sia... BC classmate, i cannot have all 40ppl liking me for wht i do who i am lo.. just hope like dislike hate or to the max that u wan kill me can do it after we graduate ma.. if lucky 9months more suay 12months than minus our holiday even lesser ba.. night night every1.. JY to primary sch secondary sch n POLY..HAPPY SCHOOL REOPEN!!