Princess Ling

Neglecting

2010-03-11T14:54:00.002+08:00

I really so upset.. that i neglected the blog.. so Sorry.. Sometimes i still miss U so much.. Everytime all de memories of u still kept within me.. The sweet 1, the caring 1.. All of u!! maybe now u are happy with ur life i just wish u the best.. Life have to go on.. What is love! Since i not fated to have 1. Than i shall party my life with deary & GP Powerhouse regular Bitches..

Not a good new year!

2010-01-03T15:27:00.002+08:00

Happy new year every1!! It's 2010!!

For me its not a happy 1.. soon i going to open a new blog la.. this 1 is left to melt down..

Haiz recently go club keep getting in to fight damm it.. Sibei suay la... Yesterday worse fight, my finger swollen n a bit out of shape, legs alll cuts & blue black.. Neber wack de bitch kao lat i jialat.. cause 2 beat 1... wanna quit quit quit!!
Waiting for SOME1 to propose to me lo!!

New Year Resolution..
1. I want to stop club..
2. I wanna settle down..
3. I want be Happy...
4. Let me think first..

Blog Dying

2009-12-28T16:08:00.002+08:00

Haha!! Damm long didn't bother to update this stupid blog.. i was thinking to create a new 1.. but now i am really busy.. working at Sentosa kills me.. need wake up as early as 5.30am.. Anyway christmas was not really gd.. didnt bear to close this blog.. too many memories, alot unhappy 1.. but the most it contain me n Baby..

Happy 2010!!

P.s i really must not be Lazy!! see my poor blog is dying.. Wish list should add I WAN LAPPY..

Lousy Lousy Lousy

2009-06-22T01:12:00.004+08:00

Haiz. i really extremely lousy ba..
Seriously, nothing i am good. Home almost 1 week le..Damm boring ba! other than baby sit Ahgirl bring her to art lesson & ballet lesson other time i will sleep all the way until 5pm. Grace jie, Elly ma & stella mama keep ask me go back MC work lo. Miss them la, but working means no time for everything leh.. Super tired tired job 6days per week by the time i reach home i just too tired to move..
Dad still home! pls some1 hurry ask him go back indon la.. Everyday ask us help this do that, if sis don help it means he will nag me to do it... Kindly help him out no thanks but grumble..
I just ask mum pay my credit card bill la.. Promise not to use overlimit le! she wanted keep my card but i promise not to use it le... I thought she want "freeze" my card like what happen in the movie.
Baby, Till today u still don trust me.. Today, i sit in front of my comp whole day search everything. I didn't expect this to happen. I am so torn apart by the truth. Ever since i drop the phone, tears keep running down my face. Remember, i use to tell you whatever happen i will be by your side, i will wait for you. You use to tell me you need me in your life, i fill up part of you. Why can you leave me alone behind, catching your shadow. End of station, i have to face the truth of you and her. Now, i have to face fear, pain, lonely, darkness alone knowing you are not there for me. I am the last to know all the news, but i promise and hope when you are in fear i will be the first to be there for you. Sickness or healthy i will be there with you. Take Care!
Let me sort out my feeling. Before blogging back.

Nuts

2009-05-15T23:51:00.003+08:00

Tired...
Everyday working n working.. time past so fast.. left 1more week i ending my attachment.. Last wed ladies night at st james powerhouse, ME, Grace, Elly, Rachel dear, seline, michelle, jenny, angel, shirley, may damm happening this girls are CRAZY.. I am very happy that during this bad time 2 company willing to employ me.. but i didnt know how to make the choice to move forward or to stay... Ever since i got my credit card, i neber stop buying its driving me insane.. Every thursday off means shopping time, i will shop alone.. seriously, i gt a feeling of depress.. Baby, Take care.. when i am not by ur side..

MY BIRTHDAY

2009-05-03T23:05:00.002+08:00

wht a birthday this year, so busy with attachment. i change outlet le now at OG orchard point manager is better. every1 treat me nice except the new theraphist.. wednesday after work, we all except manager went to Double O. Ladies night all drink n dance like mad..
well... should i talk about my birthday, seriously every1 forget about me.. DON'T SAY PRESENT no friends sms me to wish me, don't tell me busy lo forget say forget.. this call friends.. i waited 1whole day.. WORSE BIRTHDAY.. baby, also busy with work.. My dream burst like a balloon.. i thought he will surprise me.. But neber mind.. i have never felt so sad before that i cried so loud..
I am taking off my pendant key, 21 is yesterday.Now 22 le, must start treasuring every moment i have.. I wish i wish everything 4 me will go smooth, baby take good care of yourself ba..

Worse...

2009-03-23T01:13:00.003+08:00

Jie say i am a spolit brat... Baby say i am a spolit brat... YES I AGREE...
FKING HATE IT.. HATE ROADSHOW.. HATE WORKING.. outlet girls all treat me nice... but problem lie with me.. TIRED N LEARNING NOTHING.. key DATA DATA N DATA.. Thanks baby.. Everyday night i gt nightmare.. LAOCHARBO N DE JERRY C'B KIA SCOLD ME.. EH JENNY.. STOP BEING SO BOOTLICKER.. Y u wan get good result or u wan a bf.. KANA LANPA LA.. seriously,You are the worse type of people i ever seen..i talk to joan u also wan kpo. whatever we talk u also want know.. if u feel so lonely go find ur fren.. want make the whole roadshow staff like you.. keep trying makeout with jerry.. eh go hotel 81 lo.. BITCH.. go complain about us.. still act pro.my customer also snatch 30cent survey form u need money izzit.. Tell me la.. need me donate to u.. or if u so in need go gelyang lo stand there 1 night.. don't need ask ppl write survey.. Outlet is better really, while doing computer data. i always try take note of what is happening in the surrounding. 1week since start attachment, gastric pain n eyes infection, nightmare, couging and cold.. haix.. enough.. MISS SCHOOL. MISS MRS TAN. MISS MY FRIENDS..
Stress.. Parent wants me to continue study But both have a different thinking.. i don't know which to follow.. dad want me to study full time he will pay 4 everything private or poly also neber mind. mum on the other hand want me to work and she will paying half my school fees so i can learn to treasure money and to be responsible...
Damm tired le.. tomorrow working at 11am Arama at tanjong pagar until 9pm.. when i free than i post pic n keep updating.. night guys..

HATE IT

2009-03-17T22:11:00.005+08:00

3weeks past since i started my attachment.. left 6 more weeks!!

I am soooo tired.. I am heng my off days land on Saturday & Sunday..

OK everyone time 4 my complaining session.. Outlet everyone treat me good.. except one slut.. NOVELLA THE BRANCH MANAGER.. seriously, unless you guys have tons of money to spend than go ahead visit M**YC**A...Boss, i not aiming your hardwork of building up this company but is the people working for you.. From what the manager always tell us, always find rich taitai who have to much money to spend make friends with them they will provide unlimited opportunities.DON'T FIND PEOPLE WHO JUST A WORKER CAUSE 1 DAY YOU WILL DRAIN THEM DRY AFTER YOU SUCK FINISH THEIR MONEY THEY CANNOT BUY ANYMORE PACKAGE FROM YOU SO THEY ARE A BUNCH OF USELESS CUSTOMERS. Manager unless you tell me you are not working for people this is your own COMPANY don't look down on middle class people.. IF a pervert looking guy who ask for massage or facial make them pay more charge them extra $100/- poor guys i know at this point you must be furious.. ya this is how gan-bu this manager is.. NOW STORY OF ME N THE MANAGER.. Slut make everyday give me tons of unfinished work not that its something i can learn. just some past customer data have to key their NAME, ADDRESS AND NRIC INTO THE SYSTEM. So, Thursday i was doing my work and my mentor ask me to call the customer to confirm their appointment. Than manager ask me stand up give her use computer.

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Manager:Amos, call me. i want ask you how to find the excel files.

(manager on speaker.Amos on the phone teach her.)

At that point i left 1 last customer to confirm his appointment. Than by ACCIDENT, I hang her phone which she is talking to the IT EXEC..

Manager:ARE YOU BLIND, WHAT THE FUCK CAN'T YOU SEE I TALKING TO AMOS.

Me: sorry, i don't know you using line 1.and amos doing it for you le. don't worry

Manager:NABEI, i don't need to learn meh.

(Manager call back and slam stuff)

SLUT ARE YOU TELLING ME YOUR HOUSE PHONE IS LIKE OUTLET GOT MULTIPLE LINES.and since you want learn go sign up some computer lesson la.. so basic stuff also don't know.. still tell amos complex. You want flirt him go look in the mirror please..

OK, Than i called the customer.

Me:Hello,is this Andrew.

Customer:Ya.

Me: Hi, i calling from M**YC**A,ARAMA. to confirm your appointment with us on Friday at 7pm.

Customer: oh, can i pick my own therapist. Please assign Raymond for me please.

Me: i am sorry, we don't have Raymond this person.

Customer: Really. OK never mind than.

(After the call end, manager and mentor was at the counter i ask mentor. we got Raymond meh? mentor say if people ask say he on long vacation. THAN MANAGER LOOK AT ME. SAY HE NO LONGER IN SERVICE. than ask me how i answer back i repeat what i told the customer. than SLUT SCOLDED ME. HOW CAN U BE SO RUDE.)

OH SLUT, don't tell me first day you enter company you know how to talk on the phone answer every call. Immediately she went to complain to some people.. than mentor answer the phone, she help me with words saying every1 will make mistake.. Ya, thanks mentor ONLY SLUT DON'T MAKE MISTAKE.. BUT LET ME TELL YOU MANAGER MAKE A BIG MISTAKE. she scolded the customer. so every Friday & Monday the customer come for treatment manager will go parkway help out.. MANAGEMENT, I THOUGHT ON THE MEMOS you guys wrote people who kana complain by customer or quarrel will kana suspend for 3months.. Manager to top up everything let me tell you I SIGN S$3000/- SLIMMING PACKAGE WITH LONDON WEIGHT MANAGEMENT. fuck you. My baby and me have money. Slut, you think i come from some poor poor loser family meh.. Manager anyhow sell package, if that day not a singles sales. she will ask consultant to keep Selling packages to people even if they are not suitable. Seriously alot of story in the outlet truth of how beauty parlour can earn so much that consultant are getting $5000/per month pay..Attachment suck workload unbearable,pay so little. i cried not for the slut but a tiredness in me.. Baby, Thanks for the understanding.. Confession of a shopaholic, nice movie but hor don't inspire me. Zzzz waste money izzit. i know baby will say that.. i am a person if i don't have what i want i will cry.. I cry when i don't have the lastest burberry.. unstopable Brat. Burberry, i am coming to get you.. wait 4 me.. Next month my birthday 3may.. 22years old but i don't know what i want not matter in work or study or everything. if possible i try book club vip rooms so every girl friends can come guys sorry not invited.. FUCK WHOEVER WHO ASK ME TO WORK OR FORCE ME TO WORK.. Fion, my in charge supervisor to you... I seriously fucking tired.. I trying to REN!! BEAR WITH IT.. I know at this point you might as well fail me.. cause i cant bear roadshow.. but i tried to learn in outlet. Least you sent me to outlet for 2weeks You neber heard a complain or word what..FUCKING ATTACHMENT MAKE ME CANNOT GO CHINA.. CH33BY3... SUPER UPSET WHOLE FAMILY, GRANDMA, GRANDPA, MIN, MINGTING, ERZA & FAMILY, VERA & FAMILY ALL WENT CHINA VISITING. LAOYI, I MISS YOU.. miss your 7story house & near town(5mins walk to central district SHOPPING HEAVEN)..

Super funny- wednesday, i wake up i saw a letter on the table. my credit card insurances SO WHERE'S MY CREDIT CARD.. I was like hey citibank why u all so funny the sent people credit insurances before my card. so, ITS NOT.. i called mum, Mum thought postman posted wrong letter in my mailbox. so i ask mum whatname izzit.. She say P something.. I was like Izzit R cause rachel ma. When i get home I realise ITS PRINCESSLING.. HAHA.. all join up so mum can't make up the words. mum say i am insane why credit card put princessling. haha.. Imagine i go out the sales assitance say thanks princessling for shopping with us.. HAHAHA HOHOHOHO.. NUTS. I AM soooo crazy....

F**K DAY

2009-03-17T22:11:00.003+08:00

DAMM PISS OFF...

SERIOUSLY, yesterday was my first day of work.. 9.30am have to reach mary chia HQ.. i was soooo excited thought they will post me out hand me uniform... BUT WTF... dream on... ME, JOAN & JENNY was ask to work at tampines century roadshow.. than the other 3 stay in the office answering phone call transfering out & key contact form into the system.. tiring lo... SO we chiong down to century square, end up i work from 11am-9pm.. N SO UNFAIR.. the other 3 in office work from 9.30 - 6pm... wah lao eh.. i stand almost 8hours plus i report to work at 9.30am ... 1contact form customer fill up for me i earn 30cents.. yesterday only 3ppl entertain me... not because i neber approach customer but all those part timer like kiasu snatch them.. eh 30cents take how long to buy a gucci bag don say buy want take my burberry go bathing also not enough.. okay lo.. i don't give a damm to the 30cents.. THE LAO CHAR BO damm CB,NABU DE I REALLY CANT HEAR HER TALK THAN SHE NOT HAPPY WITH ME GIVE ME LJ FACE WHOLE DAY AIM ME... The in charge like say he understand i neber work before its my first time blah blah blah.. than he like make me go back HQ TODAY.. THAN WHT I WAS TOLD, THE AMOUNT WILL AFFECT MY ATTACHMENT RESULT.. thanks lo... SO,today i stay in the office super relax to me its nothing k.. I help to pack contact form n key them in to the systems.. easy job..I want continue stay in the office but the fellow don allow she say office too many ppl than scare my roadshow friend make noisy..i also have to note down in the log book what i have learn n done today seriously what should and can i write.. i joke about it-write i learn that singapore alot of people staying in jurong west more than east & alot of people like the name shirley.. My fren keep questioning.. SERIOUSLY WHAT THE F**K WE DOING IN THE OFFICE OR ROADSHOW N NT SALOON OR SPA MA..WE STUDY BEAUTY IF U WAN PPL HELP U CLEAR UR PAPER WORK FIND THOSE GIRLS STUDYING OFFICE SKILL.. In fact they ask them why are we not post out- reason IT'S NOT TIME YET.. wee, so when is time.. 1.when my teacher arrange their timetable to come visiting 2.The last week of my attachment 3.when they finish using the office girls. or WHEN WE TURN CRAZY... Sorry i still sick so i will stop here.. i cannot take MC haix. must payback.its been 1week my cough n throat swollen wont recover.. damm giddy standing at the roadshow.. watch people walk past me make me giddy feel like fainting.. when i am better i will write more..

GIRLS & GUYS, PEOPLE READING MY BLOG.. DON'T MIND JUST COME HELP ME OUT.. TAMPINES CENTURY SQUARE NEAR TAXI STAND (NEXT TO COFFEE BEAN) FIND LING OR IF U ALL DON'T KNOW HOW I LOOK I POST 1 PICTURE.. WEDNESDAY & THURSDAY I WILL BE THERE FROM 11AM-9PM.. I know now economic not good.. don't worry i not asking you to buy product in fact i give you free rose & paraffin wax.. see so nice right.. FIND LING, HWEILING don't find rachel cause there gt another rachel.. thanks all..

BLOG BLOG.. exam sux

2009-03-09T05:03:00.015+08:00

Ah boy so cute with the geek glasses haha!!

This is my makeup exam.. can't find a perfect model so Mingting my cousin help me out.. Heng poly on holiday le.. thanks anyway.. Nobody will let me draw a big ribbon n look like a present on her face.. damm cute..

This is the picture that given me the idea on what to draw on makeup exam..

wanted to draw feather but a bit hard..

Pei joan go marychia interview..

My mother side cousin.. sherman.. Hope he grow up as shuai as he is now..

Creative makeup.. Look like miss africa hor.. she visiting japan..

Mum swollen ear.. make us run hospital in the middle of the night.. Pus stock up inside the ear.. Until she can't heard.. doctor have to use sucker to suck all the pus clean.. damm serious until 1week MC.. N daily dressing change at GP..

My Poster. it was part of my final year project.. so i decide to sell cookies.. If u guys like it.. call me and i will sell to you.. I also offer CAKES..

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Ming ting came early morning to my house to ask me help her put some light makeup for her persentation..

MY EYES.. GOT STARS

lxROSExl n xRIDICULOUS- COUPLE LEVEL5

JiaYou joan.. Hurry love party k!!

Haha i made ahger wear de geek glasses CUTE..

Blogging..

Today exam damm sian.. don ask me whether i study my answer is no.. than Y i stay up so late coz i trying to study but end up audition.. super long didnt blog.. my blog rotting can see mould.. OMG..

spend my time audition audition n audition.. lvl 35 still struck there.. Looking 4 ppl to tag hearts & train with me CHIONG WORLD STARS... PLS pm me at Princess_Ling

Baby, thanks 4 de camera haha.. Instax Mini 7 (Blue) wanted Pink but whole SG bo stock thats what all de dealer tell me.. N thanks 4 de DIOR lip gloss.. haha Welcome DIOR ADDICT UNTRA GLOSS REFLECT 227 to my DIOR FAMILY..to count every dior gloss in total 7.. MAD HOR!! EH BABY U DON TALK TO MUCH U STILL OWN ME ALOT ALOT OF THINGS..

I will try to blog everyday if possible.. serious, i starting to get back my no life zai nu life.. STay home rot n watch movies..

Next week attachment, MARY CHIA.. tian ar.. slimming leh..

Super sian.. DAMM LONG NEBER GO CLUBBING.. YES U HEARD CORRECTLY.. I CHANGED SO MUCH.. I MISS DANCING N DRINKING.. eh aileng after my exam u promise girls night.. Kelly happy 21birthday i own u present.. that time aikeng told me they wan buy coach but end up longchamp..

Better write nicely later de BABY correct me again haha.. tian ar..

Dec!!

2008-12-27T09:33:00.006+08:00

Celebrating My Christmas!!
Hee.. designer furnitures..

Ah ger taking her dinner..

Dior free gift..

Dior blusher & eyeshadow

Dior christmas edition..

the lipgloss is limited edition ..

wee.. Elizabeth Arden Christmas set.. damm cheap everything at $99..

it was worth the money..

this set i will use it for sch during makeup lesson..

Joan left over.. after our steamboat session..

Insane.. pls call mental hospital or short hougang chalet book me 1 bed..

I want my DIOR BAG..

Pls cross this ger out.. haha..

Ehh.. so which 1 do u like.. tom yum VS corn rib!!

for me TOM YUM...

another day i went bugis to eat steamboat with bei.. n i tired ma la n i tell u damm it..

the next day i lose my voice n few days later ulcer pop out like free.. painful 1 week till nw still haven recover.. grats de clever bei,he was drinking the herbal type.. i still tell him eh nt spicy enough i keep adding chilli oil n chilli pada..

Sorri gers.. GERS GONE MAD.. HAHA.. joking la..

gers eat steamboat..

Steamboat at goes wrong.. left us in a mess..

Mum trying to make a hello kitty..

I love bubble tea.. nice nice yummy..

hahaha!!! before sch holiday start..

Tired..

2008-12-27T09:23:00.003+08:00

Damm tired this holiday nt gd countdown nt gd.. everything ALL NT GD NT GD..
BUT thanks to Bei.. my present gd gd gd gd.. DIOR ADDICT 2, BURBERRY BLUE LABEL WALLET N BAG, MAKEUP STORE ITEM(TO BE COMPLETED SOON),1DRESS 1 TOP,MAC LASH... hee love it x100.. christmas was great, shopping shopping non stop of eating & drinking until i become like 1 piggy.. but hopefully before new year i going slimming haha..
A few days didnt went home n gt scolded by uncle so badly.. went lanshop play dota & audition than search for kaka!!

More Pictures...

2008-12-03T05:35:00.009+08:00

Love my Hair.. Love my Makeup using Dior..

This BOI just like star so much.. haha if u check all de past pic. his star just keep changing in design.. in fact i love his new hair style.. SHUAIX100..

Bat man in real life?

I am trying out a new bun.. look messy hor..

Before taking class photo..

PUrest of pain...

Just got my new hair cut.. look carefully my hair colour is green n not black.. in fact, after a few days or weeks it will fade n turn light gold..

damm angry ba.. i miss my golden hair..

no choice is either black or tio expel..

Before going saloon.. ANGRY..

Super ah lian hor.. zzz but i just love my hair colour..

he is not sleeping.. just tat he cant accept strong flash light.. haha cute man.. we are on our way to a japenese restaurant for dinner..

Nice hair cut.. haha well its wig la..

BACK...

2008-12-03T04:34:00.015+08:00

Xiao Shuai Ge.. Ezra-Ahbeng(My darling cousin Aka Star BoiBoi)

On de way to sch.. veri tired sleepy

Haha some japanese artist created this using Hula Hoop nice..

Hee.. me N joan-(love u) went flyer JUST TO TAKE OUR DINNER..

Its a China phone..

Baby STOP PLAY PSP... i going to confiscate le.. haha!!

Darling haha don laugh laugh hor!!

Gucci (My fav) anybody willing buy me 4 christmas haha!!

Joking in fact i want most is LV MM or GM bag

Family dinner at a chinese restaurant(xiao fatfat n me)

My new hair cut..

Went dinner at heeren

Girls night out.. GUYS DO NOT DISTURB!! Missy Sotong!!

Actually i didnt want post it out.. BUT HOR.. TAT NOTI SHAN GO take pics of me while i am sleeping in class n post out at her BLOG... OMG!! FAINT AR!! THIS TIME PAY BACK BLEH!!

oooo!! lion dance love it so much.. nice.. jia you guys!!

Zhang huimei concert.. whole family went.. yes, even grandma followed.. nice.. i start to like her n her song..

Love dim sum..

My eyes got bigger ma.. i using alluring eyes freshkon.. its comfortable..

haha... yupp!! i am back finally fix my comp le.. this few months its a life up n down 4 me.. don't worry i am not angry with u. minus de pain i had i do still thanks u!!

Dolly ME..

2008-09-01T02:15:00.011+08:00

I miss every second of looking at you!!
Don't worry i am fine!!!
Happy!! cause i want to see you smiling back..
Haha!!! i am feeling better.. but u will always remain in my heart my dearest friend..
BubbleGUM!! nice nice nice yummy!!

Before i go sch.. abit sleepy!! BLUR BLUR SOTONG!!
Closing my eyes, i prefer not to see the pain in this world..
shh!! very noisy ar.. from here also can hear..
my new dress that i brought online.. kawaii!!
Being happy is not as bad as i feel..

Below ar some of my aunt bag..i went to her house n dig it out... FaKE OR real!!

i feel like so sian.. exam around the corner.. haha!!

well.. 1min i am happy the next i am not.. when i am alone i feel very EMO.. i will start thinking back.. but wht the point or use neh..

well.. in my deepest unknown point ar hidden pain..

WHY... will be buried deep down..

This semester is going to end soon 1month time hopefully new start..

This 1 week i see my feeling playing me..

Crying so badly..

Happy over AS..

Vomit like free..

and many more..

But last week i am EXTREME elated..

GOT MY 1N ONLY ANNA SUI collection..

TYS!! EMO EVO ELMO LAVO!!

well, Must watch BOYS OVER FLOWER THE MOVIE!! nice nice nice touching... RUI OMG HE DAMM Cool kAwaii... the Music damm nice..

F4-Japan version..
The film is set one year after Tsukushi Makino's graduation. The story focuses on a major incident that the five main characters become involved in, while also depict the ups and downs of Tsukushi and Tsukasa's relationship.

i think u guys can ask me any movies that is in cinemas.. almost all i watched it..

i M soooooooOOOO scared

2008-08-24T02:19:00.005+08:00

yea!! time to head town!!
My lashes!!
Eh!! looking at you la... don act blur.. YOU!! haha!!
Promise!! u will be the ONLY blood flowing in to my heart...
OMG.. blur le la.. hee!! stare blank lo..
Shopping Time..
EH.. SMLJ...

barbie jelly!!
Barney!! mum made it for vera girl girl!!
Past is just behind me..what i looking for is the future!!
Thinking.. of u always make me feel so sweet..
Dreams!! i just wan stay happy..

tired....

just came back home..

watch MOVIE..

OMG LO...

make me faint la..

if u soo wu ji go watch 4bia... nice.. super... even GUY ALSO CAN SCREAM... zzzzZZZ!!! till now i reach home le... i still shaking... OMG OMG OMG!!!

4Bia

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The movie comprises of four different stories of four different lives, directed by four directors. The first story tells a tale about 'Happiness' where a lonely girl finds companionship with a guy that she knows through phone text. The second story 'Tit for Tat' depicts the anecdote of a young artiste who is out to make a good-looking portfolio instead of a good movie. 'In The Middle' is more towards a parody of Hollywood movies with bits of humour and lastly, 'Last Fright' is a melodramatic story about a widow and her foe.

Cinema Online's Review
When you watch "4bia", you not only pay for the price for one horror movie but four put together! What a bargain! It's rather refreshing to see this kind of anthology played on the big screen.In this movie, four uniquely independent horror stories that could have easily become whole movies on their own are put together back-to-back as they are not linked whatsoever. By sequence, the stories are "Happiness", "Tit For Tat", "In The Middle" and "Last Fright". Each runs about half an hour and you will find that they go straight to the point, without much hesitation and the unnecessary chitchat in between.In "Happiness", it is a very short and simple story to play around. I adore the fact that you can relate to how the main feels in every situation she's facing, like the intense fear of being watched by someone or something. The main character plays her role convincingly well."Tit For Tat" - this isn't the kind of story I would want to make into a full feature. It didn't really capture my interest except for the ending. The cinematography was unforgivable as the shaky effects were used too frequently and at some point, the scenes didn't show the audience clearly what had really happened. The effects used were rather average but the effort is there.Next, "In The Middle" is possibly the best story out of the bunch. It gives the audience a dose of both horror and comedy. The actors who played four best friends conversed with one another so fluently and convincingly that you just couldn't seem to hate them. In the story, there is a familiar twist (been there, done that), however it still made the story better.Lastly, "Last Fright" tells the story of a flight attendant who is haunted by a spirit (or rather the dead body of a woman) on a plane. Out of the bunch, this was a very 'plane' (please excuse the intended lame pun) story. Story line wasn't up to par with the others. It's a weak attempt. The ending didn't have that extra "oomph" to end the whole movie either.However, "4bia" was definitely a unique blend of horror and comedy; and it does give a good scare-you-out-of-your-pants reaction that makes it worth the watch.

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Me..(blogging in a dreamy mode)

still same old me ba.. emo saddist.. haix.. Now i don't feel like talking.. wht i say might lead misunderstanding.. i really dont want know anything also.. i just wan breathe.. baobao, u shock me.. flashback of memories... my fren, i miss u!! the past really haunting ba.. i remember ur angry face.. still fresh..

happy i might look, smiling u might see.. but hidden pain is something nobody can find...

i am lose.. i wan change myself better.. i see hidden pressure, pls don show me faces of urs.. just help me change myself to a better me.. Lent me a hand but don add extra pressure i will fall back... Exam around the corner le!! hopefully things goes well.. i feel things don really goes well for me since sch starts tat tuesday.... Pls.. i am trying take things slow easy n steady.. so be u!!

Chantel.. 1girl 2Painful Past 2choice 3person involved in both incident... 2who look so alike 2 who created similar story but different in ending.. Fate!! Destiny!! (erm, tired le so typing rubbish time..) haha!! k la sleeping soon.. i only sleep 4hrs today.. seriously, i am the type who need 12hrs... if not my mood everyday also bad la.. haha!! i will blog more when i can find comp or my sis willing to lent her FK up laptop..

Chantel!!!! -> Shhhh!!! diam diam..

Jiayou!! BCs darling(S)..

Smiling princess!

2008-08-10T19:39:00.001+08:00

Back happy love.

Yea!!

2008-08-08T14:03:00.012+08:00

Cute right!! hello kitty..
My fren the melody tissue box..this tissue save my day!! i was so sick but i still went out!! bleh!
can u believe i was so sick!! down with bad COLD...
Sick sick sick!! but i still manage to go out!! bleh!!
Princess Ling!! its every girls dream to be a Princess..
top n btm.. this is my messy rm.. my bed.. excuse me!! any1 willing 2 help me clean..

me!! darling joan!! baby sharon!! (uncut)
Ghost on the loose!!
don't mistaken this is not my car la.. just find it cute.. cause got HELLO KITTY!!
i think it is veru hard tat i will pass my lic.. i fail 4 times basic leh!! mai siao siao k!! bleh!!

Hungry Human!!
Princess.. stare blank time.. i still miss him.. i am in pain!! bleeding profusely.. can u smell the blood.. hear my pain.. saw the cut he left me deep..

Bleh!!!

top n btm.. me n joan.. we going out with baby sharon n sayang fatyn go watch movie.. (HANCOCK) cock cock cock.. DARLING JOAN DON tickle pls!! hee!! Love!!

top n btm same pic just my bo liao go edit 1 extra Princess.. bleh!!

oooo!!! hhhhHHH!!! me n darling joan again!!! this time not toilet but MRT GOING cathy!!

remember at 1 entry i talk abt me going OCH.. so next time if u ppl wan bring me go haunted places think again.. i might bite!! nah!! haha not bite but pinch.. i realli scare la esp when i heard the walking sound n saw de white shadow.. BLOODY HELL!! PLS NO MORE NEXT TIME.. i am sooooo scare till now still fresh in memory
abit blur hor... cause at night.. very sian.. before holiday always find my gan papa talk cock sing song play mahjong.. now back to sch.. sing sch song talk abt sch work n play praCtical.. zzzZZ NO LIFE----!!!

Take at tampines toilet.. haha saw some1 behind.. NOT GHOST is sayang fatyn.. sayang sayang!! bleh... I am soooo fat lo.. OMG... FAINT...

yea... AHGIRL N ME.. haha.. look like my nuer ma.. we damm look alike la... love VERA.. tmr her birthday celebration need stay home prepare 4 her.. mum make her BARNEY cake.. BARNEY.. i love u.. u love me.. we ar happy family.. with a big big hug n a kiss from me 2 u.. wont u say u love me 2!!

PUI PUI PUI!!

eh.. teacher talking U LISTENING MA!! haha acting geek lo..
SKY OF LOVE...

I LOVE U SO EASY TO SAY BUT THE HARDEST TO UNDERSTAND N TREASURE..

( national day parade... 1 of their sky segment)

my dearest GAN meimei yanisa!! knew her since she secondary1...

this lashes ar soooo gey la.. nice hor.. BLINK BLINK!!! shock u 2 death.. bleh!!

SHH!!!

slient 4 1 min..

2 all my fren..

2 You..

2 Why..

2 the ppl who been hurt badly..

2 all who i love..

i don't wan c wht is happen..

this world is at a mess.. who willing to clear up n lead a clean path to future!!
hee!! super LAMER.. well this is my facial headband...

haha.. surprise!!

well my sis left her laptop at home so i decide i will blog abit.. I simply MISS BLOGGING.. i just got alot to talk abt.. my CPU still not done think we mistreated it badly ba... i think its being 1 month since my desktop breakdown...

i been thinking whether to change my name from rachel to chantel.. cant make a choice... since secondary 4 i been using rachel.. got feeling de leh!! haha!!

my audition skill is getting bad to worse even thought i can chance 6 but not very well done...

Friday.. 8aug 2.08pm i am blogging.. so nice the number..

SCH!!

today national day celebration.. well exam coming soon.. from next week on class tests than sept will be my final papers.. i really veri tired.. everyday i like stressing myself.. repeated i questioning myself abt sch abt frens abt everything... i realli wonder..

WHT AR FREN?

Girls girls girls.. i just need fren ba.. i don know why fren must make use of one n another.. cant we just be frens forever.. Movies always show how lovely it is to have a bunch of close & gd GFs.. but in real life is so hard to find 1 don say 3 or more.. bitching hurts ba!! if 1 realli did so badly as a fren y not approach her n tell her the mistake maybe she will change for the better for the seek of friendship 4 others. i don know others but me if i make mistake forgive n forget i will change n be better.. LOVE me for who i am!!

haix...

Now chinese 7th month scary.. recently aiai lydia tell me story baby sharon tell me story make my hair stand lo.. even at home at night alone i will scare...i decide to sleep in mum rm.. yea!! me humji can cause i bo ji la!! i remember the 1st day of 7th month, around 3am before lying down i look over to my rm i saw a black shadow sitting up i thought is grandma wake up before i sleep i tell mum abt it the next day she went to ask grandma whether she wake up in the mid of the night.. SHE SAID NO!!! OMG SCARY LA.. I DECIDE NOT TO SLEEP IN MY RM TILL 7TH MONTH OVER.. n hor.. i just got my nebo member card.. MY PIC GOT EDIT UNTIL I LOOK LIKE ghost la.. horrible la..

Romance is like bee n honey sticking together.. but.. ONCE over is like shoe n friction wear n tears turns enemy..wht is love? Y some promise i neber being kept! u ever ask me to promise not to leave i kept but u didnt.. What is promise? life is full of promise. N end up lies n hurts is wht the other party gets...i wan remain as fren or be best fren but u dont want.. u choose to hate me.. maybe u still angry over the gift..

My face is slowly recovering ty 2 ms tan.. LOVE!! hee.. i wan go on diet.. any suggestion!! i am soooo fat lo.. oMg leh..

wa lao.. this month i will be dammm poor... last month i use up all mu money mum damm not happy so get a heavy scolding n minus my allowance.. i prepare eat grass.. i use my allowance pay my Clothes.. Omg lo!! i still need buy magazines n some other rubbish.. zzz!!! sad lo.. i want to buy the gucci dog tag!! cute la!! coach wallet.. LV makeup pouch.. Agnes B bag.. OMG LA... poor like max.. sis also not happy with my spending.. seriously i don know wht i brought last month can make me finish $$$... erm.. i not trying to show off/haolian.. i just saying nia.. hope u all don misunderstand.. i am back to sqaure.. POOR LO.. start from scratch again ba... save money!

thanks 2 those who brought me happy memories..

Happy National day!! EVERY1 get this party started!!

Ling Love all my fren!! promise be there 4 me!!

Blogging

2008-07-27T05:24:00.002+08:00

OMG OMG!!! finally blogging again!! fk my comp 3weeks le still not ok!! WHT IS WRONG WITH HER!!

many things happen to me ba.. last week my face worse don know wht reason maybe stress maybe lack of sleep. ms tan pass me 1 pimple cream.. its so OMG LA.. since de use my face keep peeling.. everyday reddness.. UGLY UGLY UGLY MAX.. until i cannot stand it...
super sian.. sorri guys no pic.. cause at lanshop!!
haix... love is so hard to understand.. eyes shut heart close mouth zip ear block.. WHT is love!!! how to define love!! how to love!! y must we love!! Emo..so many words in my heart that i wan say but i goes empty everytime...damm long neber go MOS, maybe its de place i can go can hide ba..gif me a few more days-week will i find solution to de comp.. n finding back my feeling my heart my mind my everything.. treasure the things u wan most before losing it n regretting.. tears cannot wash away my pain..the onli way is washing away ur memory... last but not least

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BLACKIE RAYMOND!!

happy 18th!!

hope u like ur present...

Sorri guys...

2008-07-19T22:49:00.004+08:00

FK my desktop!!!

KNNCB.. SMLJ!!

sorri guys didnt manage to update!!

my desktop down.. due to too much blogging n auditioning!!

Give me some time i will write all my emo emo down again!!

nothing to do leh!!super sian la.. a few days neber blog i want

cry.. at home totally

sch sian.. home sian..

i miss everything & every1..

So many things happen to me..

I dont wan to cry le..

Next time, dont bring me to OCH nor any haunted place i will BITE... don believe i show u de pictures when my desktop back to work...

Walking!

2008-07-11T02:36:00.006+08:00

thinking..

wht happen to me..

wht have i done..

to get this type of bloody treatment..

is life ever fair?

just don wan know don wan hear..

who don wan happily ever after?

maybe being a nerd is better ba..
This is wht i need now.. de most!!!

TY PAPA!! BEING WITH ME WHEN I NEEDED U DE MOST!! PAPA LOVE..

PAPA!! PROMISE NO MIA..

..Bastard.. i don need a friend like u.. seriously, after wht u done to me.. Morning reading ur sms make me puke.. dont need an wei me or pity me cause i feel you need more of my pity.. keep ur crocodile tears aways from me TY!! you ar de worse i seen & known in my whole life.. you blow a threat to him hoping he gif a gd answer.. you hold & acted you know everything...

I HATE U TO THE DAY I DIE...

REMEMBER THIS:

YOU OWN ME MORE THAN I OWN YOU!!

YOU HATE ME MORE THAN I HATE YOU!!

YOU ARE THE WORSE ARSEHOLE I EVER SEEN..

I lose part of it cause of your ji po (KPO).. MINE UR OWN BUSINESS PLS..why must u be in the way.. HAPPY? Is this the ending you wanted? pls use a nut cracker-open ur brain to think la!! wht position are you in.. screw & plier-check ur black dirty & flithy heart..

NOTHING BUT A M***** fk-er PUSSY!!

FK OFF PLS!!

protecting your fren does not mean u got the power to hurt others.. I don gif a god damm thing about ur intention but u have no rights to make a girl so badly hurt.. falling down take how much courage to stand up.. if i am a guy, maybe i might be able to take the blow & still standing strong.. BUT EXCUSE LA.. SORRI TO TELL U I AM NOT...

SMLJ!! U M***** FK-ER. KNNCB...

today this entry, scolding u.. make u feel angry when u read.. even feel like killing me.. but let me tell u let u know... I AM X1000000000 EVEN BILLION TONS MORE ANGRY DEPRESS EMO N EVERYTHING... dont offer to tock(chop) ur everything.. CAUSE NO USE LE..

YOU THIS PUSSY PBK!!

i really treated you as a friend slowly accepting & happy contented being with you all.. BUT UR BLOODY 1 MEETING THAT CAME OUT OF YOUR DIRTY MOUTH BLOODY DESTROY ME..

FAIR TO ME MA?

WHO THE HELL U THINK U AR?

eh wan turn back time?? after wht u did u still got face n gut to tell ppl if u can turn back time.. already make me fall to the pit.. TY LO.. SG U DE BEST SIOL!!

i think i cant smk le.. this few days my stomach flu make me so xin ku..at night de worse..after smk i will feel giddy than wan vomit.. i today 1 night finish my pack. ice mint cold.. papa.. sorri i make u so worry abt me... my pale face my emo look realli make u worry sick.. sorri sorri n sorri!! but papa.. i want ty u soooo much.. come down find me wait me.. papaLOVE.. papa papa papa... i cant express how much u realli help me stood by me.. u r important n wont be forgotten.. nuer X3.. papa wont tock urs.. next time use ahgong n great ahgong de.. tmr 1.5l coke.. i still own u 1can de coke..

i no longer longing 4 u.. why.. take care.. Promise to open ur heart let others enter.. next time, when u ask ppl why-always ask urself first maybe ur answer will even be better than wht others gif u.. yi fa huan fa! bleh =.=

BYE! BYE!

Emo day!!

2008-07-09T23:29:00.005+08:00

I AM A LIVING DEAD DOLL!!

why izzit me?

what i do?

PLS STOP ASKING ME WHY!!

CAUSE I ALSO NEED TO KNOW WHY!!

eh!! don need jia xin xin- don need act cute!! don need say tat we ar still friends.. have u even spare a thought for my feeling.. don tell me that u want protect ur friend.. so wht am i to use some BITCH.. bloody hell!! u ar such a KPO!! KPO= BUSY BODY.. can u care more 4 urself.. maybe u need attention cause u feel left out after i enter.. after so much hurtful things u did to me!! call ur-self a man!!

U R A PUSSY 2 ME!! FK OFF PLS!!

today back to square 2!! life still a shell sch soul out thing..enter class onli tio aim & shoot non stop!! smiling now is 2 hide my pain! the more i laugh the more empty my heart is..I miss them.. not the pussy!! papa.. why.. haix!! i don wan be ling anymore.. ling is painful is sad is not as gd as wht ppl think wht ppl see!! morning when bathing i ask myself can i don be me.. i gif up many things i use to enjoy doing 4 wht i also don know.. but i know i lose alot of happiness n in return gain alot of sorrow.. Love a word a feeling the world is searching 4.. i feel a total loser.. i always help ppl but who help me when i in a lose.. afraid to wake up, i now don even feel like talking i so scare the more i talk the more i might say something wrong.. ty papa.. at least u still there 4 me.. support me abit.. i am sorri that my decision hurt u.. but i did explain why i do that, choose that, did that.. i thought why will help me overcome all.. i wanted to cry out everytime but when the tears reach my eyes they just refuse to leave.. i am afraid so afraid that i become blank mind.. HOW long will it take to overcome everything? Everyday i wake up being a nobody.. Why.. the reason we quarrel.. the answer u wan.. i just want you to myself... only. selfish.. yes i am.. brain wash myself everyday.. veri tired.. tmr long day ahead.. still need rush home help skye de KUKU man wedding lic.. than i decided to quit audition... take a break.. hopefully sat bim free.. sian lo!! i treat all gd but not myself.. EH baby sharon, x3 hee.. ty 4 being there pei-ing me.. baby LOVE!! wee wu wee!! today lesson time keep sleeping HFC revision sleep. FTY faciaL & massage SLEEP... i am tired both my mind n my soul ba.. baby violent lo, de way she twist my head remove my eyes makeup n the way she do vibration..papa.. i not a strong ger n wont be the strong ger.. who don wan to be taken care of by some1.. its hard to overcome everything alone, i think not even wonderwoman can do it.. takes a little help a little push!! now, i don blame any1 but myself 4 everything that happen in my eyes.. everything takes 2 hands to clap, 2 hands t hold on to some1... i just wan to be hold on tight now... a suddenly hug might make me cry.. till today i still look around since the moment i step out my hse.. hoping something happen hoping he might pop out n talk 2 me.. maybe that is wish that is hoping ba.. i know it will not happen now n neber... i don wan know wht will happen tomorrow cause today is a failure...

I HATE LING!! LING'ER LING'ER LING'ER!!!

aviation - you were my everything

this goes out to someone that was

once the most important person in my life

i didn't realize it at the time

i can't forgive myself for the way i treated you so

i don't really expect you to either

it's just... i don't even know

just listen...

you're the one that i want, the one that i need

the one that i gotta have just to succeed

when i first saw you, i knew it was real

i'm sorry about the pain i made you feel

that wasn't me; let me show you the way

i looked for the sun, but it's raining today

i remember when i first looked into your eyes

it was like god was there, heaven in the skies

i wore a disguise 'cause i didn't want to get hurt

but i didn't know i made everything worse

you told me we were crazy in love

but you didn't care when push came to shove

if you loved me as much as you said you did

then you wouldn't have hurt me like i ain't shit

now you pushed me away like you never even knew me

i loved you with my heart, really and truly

i guess you forgot about the times that we shared

when i would run my fingers through your hair

late nights, just holding you in my arms

i don't know how i could do you so wrong

i really wanna show you i really need to hold you

i really wanna know you like no one could else know you

you're number one, always in my heart

and now i can't believe that our love is torn apart

refrain:i need you and

i miss you andi want you and

i love you 'cause

i wanna hold you,

i wanna kiss you

you were my everything

and i really miss you (2x)

i knew you gonna sit and play this with your new man

and then sit and laugh as you're holding his hand

the thought of that just shatters my heart

it breaks in my soul and it tears me apart

at times we was off i was scared to show you

now i wanna hold you until i can't hold you

without you, everything seems strange

your name is forever planted in my brain

damn it, i'm insane,

take away the pain

take away the hurt

baby, we can make it work

what about when you

looked into my eyes

told me you loved me

as you would hugged me

i guess everything you said was a lie

i think about it, it brings tears to my eyes

now i'm not even a thought in your mind

i can see clearly, my love is not blind

i just wish everything could have turned out differently

i had a special feeling about you

i thought maybe you did too

you would understand, but...

no matter what, you'll always be in my heart

you'll always be my baby

our first day, it seemed so magical

i remember all the time that i had with you

remember when you first came to my house?

you looked like an angel wearing that blouse

we hit it off, i knew it was real

but now i can't take all the pain that i feel

reach in your heart, i know i'm still there

i don't wanna hear that you no longer care

remember the times? remember when we kissed?

i didn't think you would ever do me like this

i didn't think you'd wanna see me depressed

i thought you'd be there for me, this i confess

you said you were my best friend, was that a lie?

now i'm nothing to you, you're with another guy

i tried, i tried, i tried, and i'm trying

now on the inside it feels like i'm dying

the only thing i want is for you to be happy

whether it be with me, or without me

i just want you to be happy

爱我的人和我爱的人

盼不到我爱的人

我知道我愿意再等

疼不了爱我的人

片刻柔情它骗不了人

我不是无情的人

却将你伤的最深

我不忍我不能

别再认真

忘了我的人

离不开我爱的人

我知道爱需要缘分

放不下爱我的人

因为了解他多么认真

为什么最真的心

碰不到最好的人

我不问我不能

拥在怀中

直到他变冷

爱我的人为我痴心不悔

我却为我爱的人甘心一生伤悲

在乎的人始终不对

谁对谁不必虚伪

爱我的人为我付出一切

我却为我爱的人流泪狂乱心碎

爱与被爱同样受罪

为什么不懂拒绝痴情的包围]为什么不懂拒绝痴情的包围

Back le..

2008-07-08T22:43:00.003+08:00

if i can always be that happy!!
now i am left with a choice.. to leave!!

my nerd hair make me laugh make me sad make me so emo!!
i just wish i know nothing.. continue be a sotong gal!

this is the last time i c papa.. i c blackie!! i didnt know sch start everything come to end!! fairytales ar fake.. who the fk in this world still believe in it.. MAYBE i am de last idoit!!

Back from my break le.. Smk le forget le but reach home everything back into my mind again.. seriously, now i feel veri giddy.. sis was shock y i SMK! i realli stress. from sch, from Papa, from WHY, from everything... i keep looking looking looking hoping there will be change will be surprise or even HOPE.. but all i c is pain dream.. tmr, when i wake up it will be another story.. maybe gd maybe bad but wht i know is i don feel like waking up..Neber promise ppl when u cannot do it.. neber gif ppl hope when u cannot fulfil it.. it onli end up gif-ing ppl pain.. when i say pain when i say i am emo now is thousand of saddness.. i cannot use words to describle it i onli can use my shattered soul to show u.. i neber show ppl how emotional i am. i always gif my fren happy go lucky look. but today i show them my pain my fear my lose in everything.. baby sharon, sayang fatyn sorri i didnt mean to show that sad face but i just bearing too much in my heart..4 the first time i didnt bring my phone out.. i dont know who invented sms.. Sms a programme that can kill ppl can hurt ppl can bring ppl joy can do so many things to thousand of ppl.. ppl often ask me y i got so many unread sms.. i am scare of sms le.. i can scare of putting hope in a sms n kana disappointed once n again.. can i sleep tonight without thinking? i cant ba.. Papa.. i realli don know why i so stupid.. Papa.. i am so sorry ba.. if time can stop i just wana be back like the past where papa still papa.. Papa.. XINFU.. easy to write but hard to get the meaning... now i veri mess up, i wish to MIA also.. but i cant. i still got my project.. if i neber know papa n them i still in my RnB. but now when i blogging i listening to chinese oldies.. Knowing a person is easy forgetting a person is hard.. To love takes 3mins to forget take 3weeks-3months-3years.. now my head so hurting, i promise bim to stop SMK but sorri i realli veri stress i just cannot think straight.. Papa is not easy to tell a person everything..

I HATE MYSELF!!

blackie-raymond sorri sorri n sorri accepting anot is another thing.. i didnt mean to come into it n leave so many bad memories.. i didnt mean anything.. all ur question is not i don wan answer its sudden. i didnt know how 2 answer.. maybe i c things so different that i didnt notice anything.. but, i still wan ty u all pei me 4 the past 2weeks.. i neber step into orchard but i neber miss out any fun also coz i got u guys pei me.. maybe this will be the last le..

HAPPY BIRTHDAY RAYMOND!! 26JULY!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KC!! 30 JULY!!

i was so hurt.. tmr how am i going sch wht type of feeling must i bring with me.. i going insane!! tears ar meant to be hidden.. i am not brave not strong.. i even think of going out de road kana BANG by de car!! i keep staring blank now!! i cannot have anything in my mind a clear vision of happy or even something to keep me clear!! i will miss u all!! i should be the one who leave ba!! papa don need MIA.. i am the idoit! i leave ba.. its my fault..i cant sleep.. i just need some1 now to talk to listen to forget something.. to know everything wont be back wont return to wht it is.. sad.. so many things happen make me unwell again.. my stomach flu, my blackout, my heart..everything compressing me make me feel emotionally breakdown.. pls don tell me wht i should do just lead me out of this mess..ITS ALL MY FAULT!! i cannot stop hating myself!!

BYE! BYE! Baby du bu qi!

sch start le!!

2008-07-08T20:45:00.005+08:00

maybe turning back n walk away is the best solution. i should not have answer that phone call that lead to the pain i am carrying it today.. i neber imagine that will crash me so badly. now i am left with EMO..

.......................................

Finally, back to sch.. actually i should be back on monday instead haha Mc!! yea! suddenly skin sensative tat cause some rashes on my leg n hand..

well..

sch start i should be happy, but today i quite emo ba.. emo? sad. damm sad, its onli my shell in sch but soul in burning pain.. am i dreaming i just want to wake up from this painful dream or even return back to 3weeks ago change everything if i can..

I AM A PROBLEM N THE PROBLEM!

i miss papa.. miss blackie, miss why.. i neber regret knowing u! least u bring me 2 weeks of joy n happiness!! i got so much to say in my heart.. Papa ty 4 being there 4 me helping me out protecting me.. i am so selfish i dont want let u go! sorri forgif me maybe i suddenly depend too much on u le.. today is the worse of all my years of sch reopen ba.. suddenly, in 1 morning i lose many things... my life sux ba.. i am so vex now~ I dont know wht i go sch 4 today.. i just keep stare blank.. i c de parafin wax i feel like dipping my whole hand in scalding myself in pain 2 wake up from the dream... i am so afraid i might lose myself again, start emo-ing start missing sch. PLS.. i realli veri giddy.. i know i do wrong tat made papa blackie n why hate me.. WHY why must be me? my mind is blank!! switch on n off ur phone to find some 1 giving me a solution.N not ppl asking me question!! wht answer do u wan from me? when some ppl face problem they can run away from it by playing MIA since they have nothing to worry no work no sch no nothing. but me? i need face sch, face my family, face everything. heart is pain but i still must treat like nothing happen.. still smiling out in sch. i don know how to talk le. maybe slient is the best answer to give to ppl ba! Papa Sorry.. Why Sorry.. Blackie Sorry.. maybe this is wht i can say now.. i just wish i am not me!! SO stress again.. i wan SMK back wan take Panadol again wan do all the zzz things again.. heart ar!! can u stop beating 4 1 sec 2 let me RIP.. Papa i realli happy tat i know u, i wont feel u betray my trust cause i happy tat u once listen to me understand wht i realli am.. Gif me 30mins ba.. let my tears do de job first or let me go down buy panadol n smk than i continue. If i neber continue, means i take this deep cut too much its bleeding.. why. ty 4 everything!! No longer able to quarrel le.. wont feel tired le.. don need to gif in.. Take care!! i cant MIA tats 4 sure but this is the biggest Pain i ever recieve in my life 4 this moment to stand sit or walk i might take a long long journey..

1 last day le...

2008-07-05T10:14:00.003+08:00

I WAN HIDE IN THE DARK.. LIVING UNDER NIGHTMARE!!

sian lo.. early morning 7am i call papa gif me miss call need to complete my damm project.. yesterday, wanted to finish it but my heart gif me problem so have to rest..my breathing gets harder i just wish 1 day i stop breathing stop waking up 2 c this painful world.. i miss papa n blackie.. i angry with MR WHY!! WHY LA WHY U MAKE ME ANGRY WHY A LITTLE THINGS U WAN KPKB!! U CANNOT LET ME WIN AR.. U GET MY WEAK POINT! SORRI SORRY SORRI N SORRI IS ALL I SAY WHEN PPL ANGRY.

I SUPER WEAK I HATE MYSELF. I HATE MYSELF SO MUCH EVERY NIGHT I LOOK AT MYSELF I WAN CRY!!

I HATE MYSELF SO MUCH!!

SORRI PAPA!! I KNOW U DISAPPOINTED WITH ME I KNOW U ANGRY WITH ME.. PAPA!! FORGIF ME PLS!!

SAD AR!!

school starting... i miss papa i miss blackie.. papa my dearest papa my best papa!! blackie my dearest doggie my best doggie. the onli dog in singapore who can play audition!! sad lo!! now i realli don wan do project wan throw everything aside hide in my bed n cry.. i feel so emo.. papa GOME!!!

DON ASK ME WHY LE.. cause i also want to know why!!

WHT HAPPEN TO ME AGAIN!!

CountDown

2008-07-03T09:45:00.009+08:00

baby sharon!! sexy look!! bleh

darling joan me n baobei nuer tiff..
darling joan n me
hee seriously now i am not de tallest ger le.. cause darling joan is taller than me!!
ah ger ahger y my birthday i have to stay home look after u!! my cousin la!! NOT NUER..
Aunt!! x3 u so much.. ty 4 everything!!

NAILS NAILS NAILS!!

Nat well she like clam ba!! she got a hard time digging cause she didnt bring her specs out

baby sharon!! (model)

stella(model)
this ger my class buangster ba!! she like 2 mouth abt me..

my burberry shades!!

sch start = bun up ur hair pls!!

darling joan me n ahger!! haha

first time i play dee!!

try this is u dare!! i am a super baung-ster at mask application!!
my new invention MONSTER MASK!!
Steamer!! shh!! cannot tell u all who izzit!!

By baby sharon
by me la
me n sayang fatyn!!

me n shan shan!!
me n baobei nuer tiff!!

we ar super lesbian!! darling joan n me!!
i think i realli so geek!!
PIGGY!!

HOLIDAY START LE!!

holiday, i meet baby sharon go PS shopping brought a pair of new shoes.. nothing much lo.. i didnt manage to shop this holiday.. maybe over sch start i will start my shopping when i free..

3more days, start of a new sch week..

haha.. well this few weeks i being hanging ard AMK.. Meeting Papa, blackie n mr WHY SLACKING slacking n slacking.. quite fun la.. just tat sch start i will miss them!! Papax3 realli ty 4 de care u shown me de love, help n advise u haven given me... Clap Clap blackie blackie my new pet pet cute cute super kawaii!! haha.. k la not forgetting MR WHY.. he realli make ppl go OMG LA.. faint!! his fav question why this wht tat he will neber have lack of WHY.. OMG lo.. haha surprise i wake up so early right.. well, today i meeting sayang baby n nat coming my hse do project.. so this few days is CHIONGING DAY HAVE to complete in time before MONDAY.. Nothing much to blog also.. haha.. let me post some pictures i have did last sem..

DAMM emo...

2008-06-23T02:17:00.023+08:00

Sori no time blog coz sis keep using de comp 4 MAPLing!! well n a bit emo.. sch holiday should be happy n joyfully but i am not i miss sch n fren BABY SHARON I MISS U LA.... i now turning more n more (ZAI NU) stay-home ger..

WHAT I DO AT HOME...(BLEH)

7am sleep

7pm wake up

Play DS/ watch VCD

(1meal per day)

Problem!!

well.. i just came back from orchard.. finally meet up with baby sharon.. Baby ty 4 being there 4 me.. well just now slacking she break some news 2 me.. remember abt de explanation i made earlier..

SO FB my reply, go ask ard lo when did u mention the water is HOT to me.. don't tell me u neber smile n laugh away during class lo i talking 2 others i cannot laugh la..so u feel i scorch u intentional if i so bad i will be scorching every1 who partner me..did i do that to baby sharon?.. answer me la!!ok i agree i say u attention seeker but ask ard am i de onli 1 saying & i feel BuCAI attention seeking skill is 100% worse lo..

who is not attention seeker?

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Is de amount one ppl is seeking..

Don tell me u neber say tat so-&-so so ATTENTION SEEKER!!

Eh, when did i ever say sia..(BAG IS MORE IMPORTANT THAN PEOPLE!) maybe is u ba!! just because i carry Calvin Klein izzit.. hell lo.. if branding so important to me sch start i bring my GUCCI bag 2 sch la.. than might as well all of us can sit on de floor... tat time i diam diam leh.. u think i like maple got teleport ar.. how i know u wan chairs from my bag.. u can open mouth ma by staring at my bloody bag u think he can stand up from de chair n say (MISSY U MAY HAVE MY CHAIR)... i think is because my bag is big(enough to treat it like camping or hiking) u must aim me n shoot la.. watch abt Love pls excuse me LOVE GOT alot lo..JUST BECAUSE MY BLOODY BAG DON OFFER CHAIR MEANS NOT LOVE MA.. than ii gif u n share my stuff among every1 i also not love la..wht love u wan? sacrifice wht u think ritual ma??.. than if u wan say LOVE RIGHT U GOT DO UR PROJECT MA..At computer lab, wht u offer us is viewing ur own friendster ma? than when ppl ask u y bo help u will say coz ling don like my idea! i got explain to u Y i don like it..i trying my best to offer the best we can to get gd grades u think this project is abt me abt u.. ITS THE WHOLE TEAM AT STAKE. DOING DE BEST 4 U 4 ME N SAYANG N BABY!! when we ask u to gather n help out u say OH i cant see..is this de best u do 4 ur fren? is this de type of LOVE u say sacrifice? so FRIENDSTER IMPORTANT THAN FREN N PROJECT?

comparing who gif in more who offer more will meaning tiring friendship love is neber endless of effort paying off!! maybe in some way i might not be gd nor u maybe gd but what we all wan is be happy n offering our best!!

JUST BE YOURSELF!!

i am not that type who SHOW OFF HOW MUCH i do 4 LOVE RATHER DO IT SLIENTLY I AM NOT TAT TYPE WHO TALK ALOT MAKE PPL LAUGH LEAST I TRYING MY BEST DO WHATEVER I CAN!! MAYBE U cant feel it..2 more weeks before the project due if this is the attitude u continue to give than nothing more to say..

Y prove who hate who most!

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why not prove n show our project is the best?

I AM not gd all along with ppl with fren.. i often get misunderstanding.. u think i want it ma?? LAST min project planing who was de 1 who keep ask us to wait wait wait than when i squeeze ideas out onli commented well (gd),(ok).. did i scold u? did i force u 2 gif me ideas? did i ask u force u to stop whtever u ar doing n help us plan? y u always look at ppl's negative side!!

HAHA!! DAMM joke sia!! ask ard when i started it lo? going back last time don bring 1 hand to clap lo.. pushing blame ARD??.. ok lo ty 4 trying 2 make me de bad person.. when i MC back who de 1 who suddenly changed maybe u don feel it la!!! so by meaning i STARTED it u wan me CLOSED IT AR!! k lo prove me that ii am 90% at fault..

So wht abt my character?

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OH, so wht am i missing out that i just don get it??

yea.. when i talk to them u also (diam diam) i agree 100% but eyes staring at me like fking not happy with me will stab me anytime u ar free lo!!

oh abt last sentence not getting it neber mind de.. Since u pin pointed so many fault of mine 1 fault extra means nothing cause u will find 10 more fault with me.. oh, help u ar i help u not enough or izzit i offer not enough help to YOU..

i correct ur mistake u got thanks ME?

i do 1 wrong u remember for months..

So this is call FAIR LA..

Maybe in ur eyes now u just feel i trying 2 hide n cover every fault i done... SO u wan me think abt wht.. saying sorri to YOU.. something tat is not my fault in the first place? so u thinking ma?

least i neber tell ppl EH i hate a ger in my class. if u ar so great than prove to everyone la! ar u perfect?

NO1 in this world is perfect..

Don tell me in this life no ppl hate u like u love u.. y not HATING LOVING LIKING KEEP IT TO YOURSELF..y not turn ur energy 4 hate 4 love 4 liking 2 studying 2 going out n enjoy.. maybe u feel things come n go easily treasuring anot also don matter! u ar young u will meet alot of ppl when u out society..but to me i wan treasure every memories i have.. i don go ard hating ppl i don have much friends 1st,i am not chit chatter type 2nd,my classmate mostly guys during secondary n poly(engineering)..i just happy i finally have GFS alot alot of GF..BUT i didnt know alot of GFS means mouthing... least i use hearts to treasure frens maybe u don feel it..now its just needles poking needles with us.. i neber go ard OMG OMG!! TELL U HOR I HATE THIS GER IN MY CLASS SO MUCH I WANT xxxxxxx HER..

least i neber dislike u hate u. Till today i neber hate u lo!!100% tell u truth ba..(believe it or not)

so u ever heard i said i hate FB? did u?

You know what is messenger?..

Got watch TV MA?..

1 pass

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4pass(n so on)-they might make mistake n pass wrong!!

Maybe by telling every1 u hate me can let u feel better.. i neber bad mouth u behind ur back, i just stating facts..trying to explain wht u mention to others!! i already explain everything i can on my blog.. Did i confront u? Its not abt daring my guts! WanT (JIO) me 1 on 1? Let me ask u la--YOU WANT & LIKE every1 know abt our problem izzit? letting EVERY1 know our problem will bring YOU proud izzit? U think end up fighting will solve everything ma? Keeping quiet is a time 4 our 2 minds to cool down before we can reduce to peace or solving!!

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If we quarrel in sch or end up fighting we onli let ppl watch free show!

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THAN aftermath is we will neber get back in track together as a friend n a team!!

YOU want this to happen?

Think abt those things i explain n said..who neber make mistake? is whether u wan forgive & forget or u wan continue hating each other non-stop blogging n scolding!!

2weeks to EFC PRESENTATION!!

(skye hurry bring my material back from japan)

IF NOT NEXT TIME DON'T WAN CHIONG AUDITION 4 U LE!!

DON'T HELP U FIND AUDITION CPL!

DON'T FORGIVE U 4 BUSTING ME OUT!(i use his guy char jio gers)shh!!

HAHA!! HURRY waiting 4 my BURBERRY BLUE LABEL!!

MY LIFE

Don't understand lo.. i am not asking every1 to like me 4 who i am..i also don't like myself ba seriously..i want be normal lo so hard ma.. Ppl say i look like CHINA ger,but i am not.. i also not AHLIAN!! secondary sch, kana bully till secondary 5 funny right..but so HARD just to stay as friends ma.. mum say if ppl don like you just diam diam lo..the more u care abt wht others see & feel about you life will be so hard to live.. don care wht ppl think or say lo.. if you are perfect than go ahead comment on the others.But, i am the one i keep listening to ppl see and feel about me.. that is why my life is so hard to live ba..i care too much too lots abt wht ppl think abt me.. i change for ppl i neber live n change for myself.. who knows abt my feeling,ii am sad lo. lonely in the night.. sometimes i feel i am a nobody living in pain.. under alot of pressure,its not i dont wan wake up from dream, don wan mature myself but i facing so many problem daily i wan hide.. yes my family dote me n sis..uncle n gugu will buy me whatever i want, i need, give me money every month.but they cant give me a dad's love, from young he is so busy with work.he neglected me n sis onli when result came n needed signatures that was the time of lecturing no matter how well i do in his eyes i am a nob0dy.. Around primary5 dad was sent to indon for business trip he came home weekly n slowly monthly now to every few months.Mum wanted me to do well for secondary 4N's-5O's to prove dad wrong that i am stupid. I did well n progress to poly but dad didnt utter a word but he gif me fk up face.. whatever i do is wrong in his eyes.. secondary sch time everyday hide in my room everynight n cry i didnt like to talk to ppl-family n friends nob0dy understand me.. i gt problem commnicating to ppl cause i always bring wrong idea make ppl hate me more i was afraid to speak n lose frens.i was sent to counsel during my secondary sch.i started talking a few years ago, when my baby cousin was born i try help out in looking after them.cause they cant speak they wont scold u when u wrong hate u when u beat them.baby are the best they have nothing to worry.mum will feed them food,daddy's love family warm.Growing up is painful since the start of teething.y i love clubbing i like dancing,during that time u will forget who u ar wht will happen next nothing but pure love for dancing..u might ask wht am i stressing lo, so little problem of yours.haha.. well, if u pei me go back china my grandma & pa hometown.. u will know both SG n CHINA all my family ar fk-ing PRO LA.. damm clever ba.. My cousin who i nearly have the same name as her ye ling going to study at the local top university (sian half right) on the other side i am onli poly n ite nia.. my dagugu-surgeon. grandma side also la.. SG also la cannot say la later tio scold by them.. hse of genuis ba.. my sis can don need study play maple n pass her o lvl with 12.. lucky i neber take o with my sis n cousin at the same time if not i will be crying like hell..when i go poly is not i want to go is uncle want me to go they attended my poly meet the parent ..if i dont go they will look down on me.. uncle keep looking down at me at that time i end o lvl he keep saying prepare to go ITE.. pressure lo~~everytime i do things i always wan others to happy i always think of others... mum n dad not in gd term grandpa n ma not in gd term.. the onli thing sis talk to me is maple maple maple.. when i audition sis will wack me when i miss or when i cant do CFM. am i trying to be missy perfect!NO! i just try to be normal..i lousy at making friends, primary sch my frens call me giant cause i tall i got wrong ma? 166cm u think i wan ar.. is my parents my maternal grandpa.. being tall kana bully. being nerd kana bully.being ahlian kana bully. whatever i do ppl just don like me.. GIF ME A CHANCE BE NORMAL.. y ppl don just be understanding... looks is decieving. is the heart that i wan show.. all along i not gd with gers..i am a girl but y they don like me.. cause i haolian i spolit brat i slut i wht? i neber la.. wht is there for me to showoff.. my family not perfect my life not perfect my everything not perfect lo.. dad got friend problem too is too all gender he got bad temper lo stubborn n selfish.. yea i agree i am selfish n bad temper ,stubborn by its up to secondary i say gd bye to selfish n bad temper..u noe i ever wack my own uncle not hair pulling type is those punching n tennis racket wack his head.back in secondary sch days..my uncle has to cerfew me..i wack my male classmate just because they bully my best friend...i always think best fren 1 enough lo who realli understand n pei u all the time.. i treasure her alot alot protect her like my onli fren forever.. hui khoon realli miss u lo.. she the 1 who know n understand my sad.. now i cannot get fk-ing angry, like uncle if i get angry my hand will shake badly body also swell and also will suddenly lose control n go crazy keep scolding.. mum say is a illness.. this year is my tai sui year- means extreme fk bad luck year worse than any animals in zodiac. its not first time i face friendship problem, mum say maybe its things i say make ppl dislike me displeasing with me maybe i say wrong things or show wrong attitude.. i got this habit of not looking at ppl when they talk.its not i am not listening 100% listening is i don like to look ppl in the eyes.. i feel werid lo.

damm tired le.. i think i will continue tmr or when i free ba.. 7.35am i wan sleep le.. maybe i not sleeping ba.. later i meeting baby sharon go out.. i feel like cutting hair lo but i go sure 90% will dye lo. howhow how teacher wan me dye black but i don like black la.. like so fierce lo.. nvm i decide later!ENOUGH LE LA.. YAWNING i blog whole night sia... BC classmate, i cannot have all 40ppl liking me for wht i do who i am lo.. just hope like dislike hate or to the max that u wan kill me can do it after we graduate ma.. if lucky 9months more suay 12months than minus our holiday even lesser ba.. night night every1.. JY to primary sch secondary sch n POLY..HAPPY SCHOOL REOPEN!!

DAmm tired!!

2008-06-10T00:42:00.005+08:00

super lazy to blog...

School

Monday always tiring.. wake up late.. OMG lo!! this few weeks, feel so down EMO!! haix..ppl if i am like making spelling or mistake with writing i am sorri superEMO me still blogging to update wht happen today!! i trying make myself happy abit at times.. to forget abt things that make me cant sleep at night.. every monday i sure late 4 EFC confirm 100%.. haha!! wake up at 8.45 go bath prepare!! i went to take bus 60 go BEDOK interchange lo!! i dammmmmmm HENG LA!! today bus come on time.. than bus 31.. baby sharon haha!! she miss my bus lo.. when she just get down the bus, my bus on the other hand going to drive away wahaha!! have to wait 4 her at sch bus stop.. we went to have breakfast at cafe 1.. she took roti prata me fish ball noodles.. THAN went facial class aiyo today my turn to steam.. i ask tiff nuer steam o3 5mins on my face wahaha!! kill my germ germ.. ms tan recently being nagging abt the increasing rate of my pimple grow alamak ms tan b0 lui fix la.. i very emo la already 1 week+ i cant sleep well at night.. stressing problem!! haix!! almost every night i cry thinking of all my problem!! y am i so suay..ms tan, i don mind every night u sing lalabyebaby 2 me but don ask me COUNT SHEEP!! tiff nuer, apply don know wht soft mask 4 sensitive skin on my face(strawberry) alamak!! say is strawberry but b0 smell de la.. say de name nice nice so ppl will use it! YEA!! end of lesson my face feel fresh happy lo!! hee!! ty nuer yea!! than went 4 break didnt feel like eating much so just buy 1 small cake some fruits n share drink with baby sharon.. well, than as we left the cafe 1. i saw a group of boys walking out the toilet.. haha i hold my laughter than when i left cafe i just burst out.. they walk out 1 straight line same height shorter than me look like dwarf wahahaha!! soooo super cute... sian la.. FTY lesson le.. today exam, i think fail le la quite blur lo. didn't read question clearly than answer le.. haix.. i think i really very stress tired n sad..WTH LA.. i super emo de lo.. than LLA super sian worse lesson of all!! we tell teacher we go toilet than we go down co-op buy tibits slack at cafe 1 awhile than go up.. i hid my big packet of tibits in my clothes damm look like i am pregnant.. haha!! finally end sch after G ask us do journal before letting us off..

SCHOOL OVER

Meet min at bugis..than we walk over to sim lim to find router.. aiyo!! must be think eh 2 gers go find IT stuff sure kana cheat right!! ya la i agree.. we like sotong!! walk walk walk!! than ask around.. well normal router G series cost $8x wa lao so expensive lo.. when we found 1 shop which sell at $6x my fren say we should buy N series lastest n faster.. me n sis have to walk around again looking 4 N this time.. sian la!! u know LINKSYS cost $198 THE CHEAPEST I ASK $158 WTF lo!! b0 lui la.. than got 1 they sell blilink(think so) sold at $99 wow!! cheap lo N series.. my internet speed is 100mbps normal G series only gif u 64mp highest.. aiyo!! sis wan buy router 4 Maple hee!! CHIONG E WORLD!! than sis tell me our uncle friend open a shop at sim lim y not ask him help us buy..IDOIT LA!! walk until leg pain than tell me this.. super angry lo!! than we walk over to bugis go SHOPPING LE!! go kino buy magazine!! Brought 5magazines!! 2popteen-1taiwan 1japanese version 2cawaii-1taiwan 1japanese version 1-cleo special edition.. haha magazine siao izzit...yea tat is how ppl call me.. aiya i buy magazine like 4 fun i no time read sometimes i just buy than keep haven even unwrap it 4 few months.. well, i treat sis 2 ICE CREAM yummy!! hers choco mint & lemon. mine strawberry cheese cake & yougurt.. went to take BUS 7 call baby sharon n i lie to her say i going home!! well,i wan surpise her hee baby sharon I LOVE YOU!!miss u so much!! so we walk over to far east.. wanted to ask sis go over act like want to buy things than surprise her but hor customer keep coming.. so cannot play! hee!! wait 4 baby end work..sis pro lo!! tall ger just tip toe abit n she can pull the shutter down..OMG LO!! than we go dinner aiya stupid sis so damm naggies!! want to eat rice no fast food have to take bus go cine too tired to walk.. XIN WANG my fav place yummy!!

me-mun fan with yong yang

baby sharon- fried noodles with milk tea

SIS(she was the 1 who wanted rice)-Pork noodles soup

talk cock time!! we tell baby sharon how 2 know in game who from sg n my.. haha well my like to laugh by typinh WAKAKAKAKA WAKEKEKEKE!! On the other side sg normal will laugh HAHAHA LOLZ.. well.. dinner came me n sis like GREEN CHILLI!! aiya so we ask the waitress get us some.. gif me so little where got enough!! sis finish hers than she steal some of mine.. so i have to ask the waitress for more i think she get so PISSED OFF with us.. she brought the whole bottle over.. so BABY sharon me n sis keep laughing.. sis really a damm JOKER make us laugh most of the time with her lame joke.. she fun to hang out with but when its me n her she's quite serious n strict with me.. 11.35pm well.. time 2 pay 4 the bills head home n sleep.. so we flag a cab drop baby sharon down than head home.. sis sleeping now!! left me blogging! haha... sleepy le!! ty baby sharon 4 being there for me.. sayang fatyn don sad cause u stilll got us!! Promise to stay happy as u always is.. U'R OUR SUPER CHIOBU!!

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LALA LAND TIME!!

TAKE CARE

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BE A KUNGFU PANDA DON'T BE THE PANDA!

I LOVE BABY SHARON SAYANG FATYN AIAI CHARISSA TIFF NUER DARLING JOAN AUNTY SHANSHAN & ALL MY CLASSMATE TY 4 EVERYTHING!!

this all happen last monday haha!! went to the MAC near my hse!! yummy!! miss u guys so much!! than aiai charissa go my hse!! read my magazine still bring it with her to the toilet puiiipuiii!!!

SIan lo

2008-06-07T16:37:00.005+08:00

Saturday, actually should feel happy de but baby Sharon working.. i think i will be staying home today..

Friends

well.. so many years le.. friends realli so hard to find ma.. because of frens i get so EMO everytime.. since young i don have much fren.. i am not the type who can talk well make ppl laugh like mad, but over the years i trying so hard to learn to talk more and find jokes so as i wont be left out.. who knows my pain!!

Primary sch.. at that time we HAVE NO MOBILE.. so i didn't manage to keep contact with them.we went different secondary sch..i wanted to choose bedok north cause its just shift over behind my house n most of my primary sch frens will be there.. but mum don't like it cause their passing rate for O & N ar low.. so i ended up going DAmai..well there how i lose contact with my primary frens...

Secondary sch.. well its the worse of my life ba.. when i go in secondary i often get bullied.. DUE to my geek look.. OMG LO..but i manage to find 1 GD fren well she the study type always no time go out-(till today we still remain Gd fren but we hardly meet up she's some workaholic)..Secondary 3, i repeated 1 year due to follow the wrong peers.the damm funny thing is when i repeat my secondary 3 n goes all the way up 2 secondary 5 my junior bullied me too funny right.. my fren say is because when i wear glasses i look 100% like a nerd when i wear lens i look ahLIAN.. OMG LO.. i just want to be NORMAL.. whhen i go out shopping i look at other gers they have best fren who company them High n LOW.. ALL I WANTED IS FREN GD FREN WHO CAN TALK N SHARE PROBLEM.. y izzit so hard 4 me.. haix.. i always feel y i am so suay even my own sis also say me suay..

Poly.. well poly is gd. i have frens.. but i didnt study than sobx KANA EXPEL but i really don like engineering imagine everyday we carry tools kit inside all wires. my gf they don makeup all plain so everytime i go toilet they will have to wait 4 me to finish touching up.. but my poly mate always work as a group damm fun.. but sometimes also hard to call them out lo.. cause our project some in TONS.. its fun with them lo.. our chalet also.. i miss my frens. u GUYS ROXZ!! u make me love poly.. i just regret not finishing.. if time possible, lets meet up when u guys free..

ITE.. well i thought i finally going to have besties fren who love beauty.. sian lo.. 1 small matter now i am at the end of losing fren..actually also not my fault la.. let u all decide ba!! actually the first month of sch i really veri happy i love my sch my frens so much. make me happy everyday.. i am not like poly skipping sch anymore.. than got 1 day i sick than doc gif me 2days MC.. the following monday i back things starts to change.. than some1 told me the story.. lets call the ger FB.. FB n me was GD. but recently she stop talking to me start doing things that make me piss off n feel left out in the group..now my feeling for sch is different.. SAD again..haix.. seriously she tell the group things i feel so lame.. ok example 1, before that let me tell u ba every time lunching i find corner seat cause i carry a big big bag so i can have a chair 4 my baggie if i put it behind me i will not have sit 4 myself.. so in order not to trouble my fren carrying my bag or me not able to sit i choose to place my self in the corner. so FB she told my fren that time she came late she was standing next to me. the blue x is where i place my bag n my frens bag. she wanted the blue seat(she didn't say a word thinking i would know she want the sit) but not knowing it we ask her to find a chair so we can shift her to the side with onli 2 ppl.. but she just stare hard at the blue sit.. so she was angry dragging the char over to the 2ppl side..its not my fault la..she in turn GIVE ME A BLACK FACE.. she tell ppl that my bag is more important than fren.. funny right. i feel la u must be more understanding. she always think more abt herself than others.. seriously i am not the only person around y she only aim me.. just because i have a big bag..

Example 2, the day before my MC.. i was having HFC as my last lesson HFC-hand n foot care..lesson was on foot massage n we ar suppose to wash model feet..i on the tap n tested the water at that time u switch hot or cold water the tap will only serve u COLD water.. seriously, tap is shared by 1 whole row of 10 ppl the water changes temperature anytime so i just leave it to fill itself to the maxed level.. it turn out, the water is HOT..she tested with her feet so i drain out some of the water changed it to Luke.. than as followed by the massage. well its not i deliberately do it. when we have a changed over, u know what she do to seek revenge. she give me extreme HOT water.. turns out my foot are real sensative turned RED ms leong call it LOBSTER gif her a scolding.. she told my frens that i revenge her.. HELLO!! MISS FB CAN U PLS RECALL BACK.. I START UR FOOT FIRST THAN FOLLOWED BY U!! CAN U PLS BE REASONABLE.. SHE tell my fren that i am childish!! she also said i always slap her feet real hard..OMG LA..i just want her to help me out abit.. u must partner her than u know what the hell i am going throught.. she don't listen in class. always make mistake she take pratical as a joke.. when she do mistake i neber scold her, she nail paint my nails so badly i have a hard time cleaning.. no ppl is perfect, if she think she's great than i wont see the point of her failing her Phase exam..SO, when i took my 2days MC.. my friends treated me differently.. everytime i talk to them FB will cut in my words.. she tell my friends she wont give in n want me to apologise..if i am in a wrong of cause i will apologise without doubt..the problem is just between both of us y must u drag it in to others..when she's around i will diam diam(keep quiet) i already give in.. but she take it for granted just keep giving me a hard time.. i really love this sch love my frens..i don't wan because FB u all distancing me out.. FRIENDS.. we will only be together for 1year. i just want treasure time n memories of US.. i wish we can be like the past few weeks going out every saturday enjoying the every moments of our time together.. haix.. really very sad now.. i don't wan lose them.i did my best to prove them i LOVE THEM.. going sch become draggie.. i might not be like FB joking fill u all with laughter but least my heart is real. i listen to all ur problem i will be around when u all need me..i do what ever the best i can..i remember every memories u all brought me.. PLs.. let us be BESTIEs FRENS n strong teamwork ba.

zzZZ i am so tired..

2008-06-04T00:33:00.005+08:00

nice ma.. i brought this on friday.. at TOPSHOP love it sooo much after i end my gers month i going wear it..

i just reach home.. actually wan continue my blogging.. ok la.. i write abit k..

Today, wake up ard 11am. i skip my PE, FTY no need go EFC coz presentation for other groups.. sian lo.. i actually promised baby sharon n darling joan i will go PE.. but just too tired coz yesterday i sleep late. reading mag until 3am.. mum called sis phone coz my phone charging. ask her 2 wake me up.. i veri scare of sis de lo.. fierce!! so i just hurry JUMP out of bed go brush up.. if i don't wake up myself she will shake me like quake scold me snatch my pillow.. than i go bath.. drag my time slowly..grandma brought duck rice for me n sis.. hungry lo.. love GRANDMA she dote me alot.. i think the reason for me looking like CHINA ger coz from young i stick to her most of my time mum working no time 4 me.GRANDma n GRANDpa take care of me n sis but werid lo sis don look anything near CHINA GER.... coz 2pm next lesson start 1-2 my break time.. haha!! than i go take bus 60 go bedok interchange i thought i got time to go 2 the bank to do my sch banking stuff.. haha.. OMG LO.. reach bank so many ppl aiya already 1.30pm dont wan to be late so i decided i will do it after school.. than i walk to the bus stop.. suay la.. BUS 31 just left. SYHT LO.. than i just take BUS 2 but i neber take BUS 2 before so i didnt know where it will be stopping.. so have 2 call baby sharon ask her.. SIAN LA.. opposite the sch!! have to cross the road.. yea finally reach sch le.. every1 wait for me at co-op than i went to buy ICE LEMON TEA yummy!!than went for HFC.. i didnt know today practical leh hear they say wednesday.. sian lo.. i didnt study nor practise before hand.so i have to try recall everything i can to do well.. hand shivering didnt know whether i did it correctly.. veri stress hor.. PHASE TEST mai sia0 sia0.. my partner this time small in size so i apply too much oil.. than on the other side she apply too little.. haha.. so exam consist of 1hand 1 foot massage set up of my station n oral test( ask 2 question nia) than continue by nail polish application my partner she apply damm thick la until u can c the surface uneven. but JY ger practise make perfect!! sian leh.. yea class over. CHIONG ar.. GO take my bag n pei baby sharon go toilet change.. tap CARD!! end of sch.. damm tired lo..
MS LEONG say some ppl in class fail wonder who izzit. scared lo... pls don be me!! i sent baby sharon to work. than walk over to centrepoint POSB settle my sch stuff hee.. than hor i decided to get my POSB GO! card.. yea!! nice hor.. sign sign le.. no more thumb print leh.. actually i feel my signature veri easy.. than baby sharon sms me ask me go her work place find her.. coz her incharge just left.. so i walk from far east-centrepoint than back to far east again.. tiring hor.. so baby sharon help me trim my eyebrow retouch my makeup.. pretty yea!! i saw my old fren which i use to talk in msn..but she forgotten abt me!! so after baby sharon end work we walk over to CINE go eat at the hong kong cafe.. yummy!! 1 po lo bao,congee & yuan yang than baby sharon hor fun with milk tea!! baby sharon bf come pick her up than also sent me home.. TY BABY n de bf.. eh but hor scary la.. i think the bf bad mood.. he like so fierce i veri scare lo.. baby talk to me.. i just talk than shaking.. scare anytime the BF b0mb scold or scream.. so reach home ard 11pm than start blogging, friendster & MSN..

wht happen on Sunday n Monday!! i will update all tmr!! once i back from sch!!

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this picture all happen on friday!! realli miss BABY sharon, darling fatyn. n trina.. you all make friday so fun.. TY!! hopefully everyweek we also have so many unforgetable memories..

sorri haven finsih my blog damm tired le.. now 3june 1.42am.. tmr got lesson.. damm tired maybe tmr after i back from sch than i continue with everything ba.. take care everyone gd night..

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Lala LAND!!

I love this picture

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Friday,Saturday,Sunday & Monday

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damm tired.. today saturday.. yesterday return home damm late so decide wake up le than blog lo..
SO... lets start..

SCHOOL TIME...
yesterday HFC i was late.. my new fake lashes la.. no matter how much glue i add they just don stick.. finally when they stick on it already 9.30am le but really ty baby sharon n darling joan waiting 4 me at the bus stop even when i am late they still wait n pei me.. HFC lesson was conductor in FTY lab..damm sian lo!! during lesson my eyes was looking around for aunty shan n nuer tiff.. their bag was in class but they ar not around.. after HFC end they finally back.. that was when i know DM bring them go 4 free hair cut-(coz their hair messy n not bun up properly).. OMG la.. DM pls la.. relax leh gif us a break also Friday also want find problem only 3hrs of sch N NOT de whole day also.. so we drag our feet 2 EFC, MR WOO leh RICH teacher lo.. everyday wear BRANDED belt.. if i am not wrong i think he owe 3GUCCI 2LV.. bring a GUESS bag.. Monday - thursday black pants.. FRIDAY-jeans... his cuff link nice lo.. i remembered 1 very clearly coz DAMM cute.. CROWN with blue crystals.. oh, baby sharon lose her telephone conversation script so she ask Mr woo 4 de original copy to memorise.. so i pei her go down make extra photo copy.. haha n also take a break.. we go co-op buy snacks find a bench sit down chit chat abit waste some time maybe when we go out mr woo already let us go.. HAHA... when we go up mr woo was going throught the assigment.. weee..... mr woo end our lesson early.. BYEBYE BC BABES cya next monday.. enjoy the weekends..

SCHOOL OVER.. MARKS THE START OF WEEKEND... HIGH 5!!
when 2 change in the school toilet.. baby sharon wears a red BEBE top, black jeans. me wears grey levis top, black shorts. sayang fatyn wears a sexy hot(nose bleed le la...) black tube with floral halter top, black tights.. HAHA.. so we left the school for the BUS... omg so many ppl lo.. all waiting 4 bus 31 heading tampines.. aiyo.. i squeezed my way up de bus.. turn my head out.. I C BABY SHARON,SAYANG FATYN, DARLING JOAN, weenat all haven board the bus.. the driver close the door.. wah.. i look at them blur blur.. baby sharon call me than tell me they will take the cab coz too many ppl waiting 4 bus.. wee... so baby sharon, darling joan, sayang fatyn, nuer tiff, aunty shan, weenat we all go eat long john.. yummy lo!!

i am so FUll lo.. can c from my face hor.. haha..

i share 2+1 with baby sharon.. girls la We DON'T WAN GET FAT.. haha.. n being eating long john 4 almost 2-3 days..

Sayang didnt want eat.. so i lent her my PSP.. wee.. playing need for speed.. than baby sharon disturb her.. LOLZ.. noti hor.. Her face also damm serious.. than while playing she abit high lo.. keep scolding.. haha.. i thought she was scolding me.. funny la.tell u hor baby sharon cannot play Need for speed cause she cannot DRIVE well.. damm funny went look at her play..

Baby sharon n me.. haha eat so much lo.. damm full lo.. we abit dirty hor.. damm unglam.. sorri la.. hee.. we actually like the TARTAR sauce n Chilli sauce.. 2gers we eat 11packet of TARTAR & 8packets chilli.. Than we say gd bye to nuer tiff-she meeting her BF, aunty shan- going CCA, Darling joan-go buy things... sayang fatyn, baby sharon n me go Orchard SHOPPING TIME..we took bus 65...

haha... baby sharon sleeping.. than me n fatyn decided to come disturb her.. haha.. Than we meet trina at cine..haha.. let me tell u cine hor.. must go lvl 3 the toilet cause NO PPL THE haha.. can take our time to do makeup.. nobody will even care... n also gd 4 taking PICTURES...than after that we go shop around orchard..

Shopping so tiring.. we decided to go Starbuck slack. cafe latte & Chocolate Danish.. GIRLS TALK TIME..After tat trina meet her BF.. actually me,baby sharon n sayang fatyn wanted to go play pool but sayang bf don allow so we went cine to eat KFC 4 dinner.. damm fun lo.. take about OUR BF.. sayang fatyn bf come fetch her after tat.. so 1 by 1 they went home leaving me n baby sharon... Bimbim laogong, went home 2 change n have his dinner before coming orchard to meet me.. so baby sharon pei me to wait 4 him.. i went topshop 2 buy my TONGS.. haha cute lo..Finally bimbim laogong turn up.. we sent baby sharon to the bus-stop so late le.. don wan leave her alone plus must look after her later anything syah come running after me lo..

BimBim laogong TIME..

me n bimbim laogong go CINE actually i wanted to watch SEX AND THE CITY.. bimbim laogong la.. keep asking eh u confirm nice ma.. not nice don later come complain all those stuff.. sian lo.. i hate he say tat.. damm it.. so we decided to watch The Chronicles Of Narnia: Prince Caspian at 12.50.we waited 2hrs for the movie 2 start lo.. damm boring bimbim laogong abit broke so we do nothing but sit at lvl 9 watch ppl play Game. than he buy 1 jumbo hotdog combo 4 me... yummy!! my FAV lo.. movie end at 3.11. damm tired le.. so i decided to go BIMBIM LAOGONG hse to stay over lo..

Movie Plot

A year after their first adventure in Narnia, the Pevensie siblings (Peter, Susan, Edmund and Lucy) are pulled back in by Susan's magic horn. They find that hundreds of years have passed and Narnia is now ruled by the bloodthirsty General Miraz, uncle to the true heir, Prince Caspian, who is now in exile. The children must find Caspian and help him get rid of Miraz.

Saturday..

damm sian, wake up late.. so play whole day of viwawa with laogong bimbim.. if u wan join me play just go http://www.viwawa.com/ no need download anything just sign up for free. its a online game. they got mahjong, big 2.5 n lots more..than around dinner time bimbim laogong n his parent we all go eat at bedok north 511.. yummy!! his mum order STINGRAY n a plate of vege 4 me n bimbim laogong.. so nice lo.. i <3>

this is my wawa char.. cute ma.. (can vote for me if u wan)

SUNDAY..

wake up late again.. i saw the table got my un-finish mac.. zzZZ bimbim laogong just leave my FRIES on the table.. lucky no lizard or insect visiting.. his mum brought wanton noodles n soup prawn noodles.. i decided to eat wanton noodles coz i don wan so oily prawn in de morning.. after breakfast i just lie on the bed watch T.V enjoying. than i massage bimbim laogong foot n hand.. CUT HIS SUPER EXTREME THICK DEAD SKIN... erxin.. so didnt wan take the picture down.. OMG LA.. so it took my whole afternoon doing that.. than bimbim laogong say he wanted to trim his BOTAK HEAD TO MORE THIN.. he say veri long but i don find it long lo.. its still as botak as he should be la.. so pei him go down.. super sian de lo... but the happy thing is i get to buy CANDY lo.. <3>

SUNDAY - Home Sweet Home

so i went home, when i open the door.. my fat girl girl greeted me so loudly.. <3>

guess how heavy is she.. <3>

BRB DINNER TIME.. 12.49AM

Finally i decided 2 open a blog..

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DOSAGE.. de cure 2 all of my pain..

sian lo..

cute ma.. we 2 nothing to do.. in boi boi dad's car..

my old bed.. miss this bed so much la.. totally no place 2 sleep.. all de toys all bimbim laogong brought 4 me de.. haha..

MY DARLING.. erza boi.. cousin la not son hor.. he is sooo shuai lo.. but he also damm funny..last sunday he went 4 class than de teacher wanted 2 play a game so ask all de kids 2 place de bean bag on their head.. so u know wht he told de teacher.. "CANNOT LA..LATER MY HAIR WILL GET MESSY.." funny boi so young already care image..

i wan be a geek haha.. so ugly la.. mum gif it 2 me..(NO DEGREE)

last time a maple freak everyday i stay home just 2 maple..

haha,i just love my burberry glasses so much.. i took alot of time 2 find de perfect 1 4 me..

damm sia0 lo.. i go toilet with baby sharon than just take non stop of photo..

in bus nothing to do!

3may my birthday.. de round cake bimbim brought 4 me..
this ar de 2 cakes i have 4 my birthday

my mum make my HELLO KITTY key cake.. 21 le sobx..

before he go ARMY.. my BIMBIM so fair lo..

me n BIMBIM laogong.. <3 id="BLOGGER_PHOTO_ID_5205825244277452834" style="DISPLAY: block; MARGIN: 0px auto 10px; CURSOR: hand; TEXT-ALIGN: center" alt="" src="http://2.bp.blogspot.com/_tYvAQmdYgoA/SD7Oel_rMCI/AAAAAAAAAAM/gL00_ehBD5Y/s320/21052008459.jpg" border="0">me n baby sharon(during my MC last thursday i go shopping at take with her..)

OMG.. finally decided 2 open a blog but i damm lazy 2 blog leh.. haha.. k ba.. this few days since my SUPER BAD MOOD.. i keep complaining in my friendster my own comment so i blog la.. Write down all my EMO lo... today damm siannn....
SERIOUSLY TILL NOW I STILL ANGRY LO.. over wht happen yesterday.. was having facial test than ms tan ask me partner XX.. hell lo.. she like my SUPER SUPER EXTREME CLASSMATE WITH SERIOUS ATTITUDE PROBLEM--> everyday teacher talk she makeup in class... OMG LO.. BUT HOR.. yesterday ask us perform night makeup so i use mine instead of her SUPER AUNTY EYE COLOUR.. i use black 4 her eyeshadow GLITTTER LEH.. so nice lo.. after i end my makeup she go find her fren.. tats when i heard her say i draw her face like GHOST.. I NEBER c ppl so FK UP DE LO.. de fren tell quite nice wht.. i like wht ling use as ur eye colours.. stilll de XX gif me de KUKU FACE.. haix..
Today,sharon baby.. kana pull out by de DM 4 de dangling fringe.. DM bring her go HAIR DRESSING DEPARTMENT.. sian lo. but lucky onli abit of snip.. after sch go tampines long john with baby sharon, sis ira , sayang fatyn go eat n talk lo.. talk cock sing song play mahjong.. bleh..
BUCAI my class biggest JOKER.. haha.. DM COME IN DURING FACIAL TIME.. she said some1 took pic of a GER WEARING UNIFORM outside unbutton her top showing off her BREAST.. ask de fellow 2 admit.. gt PROOF LEH.. u know wht she say wah teacher veri hot so i do it... OMG LEH.. so fat lo.. oil nia!! lucky i neber c if not on de SPOT I vomit..
DAMn sian lo.. mum brought me PDA phone 4 almost a week or 2.. till now i still cannot figure out some of de function 4 a IT-IDOIT like me.. i onli waste $ lo.. but i wan PROVE 2 my sis n bimbim i also can do well in IT..
TMR.. FRIDAY le.. yea. bimbim coming out.. i going out with BABY sharon shopping..

studying ITE. beauty realli more fun than poly engineering.. finally,i do something of my choice mym don need 2 SCOLD ME 4 not going sch.. don need kana called by de teacher 2 say i pon sch late 4 sch.. don need recieve tons of warning letter flooding my mail box.. I X3 BC classmate.. some realli veri funny..